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any single autistic latinx/wyte males looking for indonesian man?
This but Im looking for an indonesian woman.
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flying gorilla
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i wonder if there are any faggots in my neighborhood its unrealistic i will even find any though if there are
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i want to make a man happy i know i talked abot trying to find a lonely guy earlier i dont think many gays are like that but i think i could maybe try to make a normal guy happy maybe idk ig thats kind of weird though i know i dont want to try and push myself on straight men but maybe i could make that type of guy happy i dont even think that type of person exist anywhere around me so idk maybe its just some weird thing sitting in the back of my head im sure he'd hate me if i tried to come onto him if i tried i just wish it was easier to find someone to date because i dont think im that ugly and maybe im kind of attractive ig but i cant even find a bf because im a social retard that doesnt even like people i wish i could find someone nice to be with i kind of wish i still looked like a foid because maybe it would be easier to get a bf that way but im not even sure if it would help i think its kind of weird the only attention i have ever gotten from anyone is pretty much that random mentally retard teen that kissed me on the lips when i was 6 i dont get why thats the only man that ever did anything with me and it wasnt even a good thing that shouldn have happened its not like it matters that much though its not like he raped me i hate it all so much if i was a real woman instead of a faggot i could probably find a really good guy and i wouldnt even have to be good at talking
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i dont like it when i see gay couples out it makes me feel bad not so much if they're ugly but most of the time they are hot and it makes it feel like shit they shouldnt even be together i bet all they do is sex and have a shit relationship anyways but ig they like that and love each other still i hate it i want somone who loves me why cant i have that i wanted that forever its been a decade andi dont have it wtf is wrong with me maybe its because im not a whore but i dont want to have to be a whore to get a bf ig that might be the only way though
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i think its weird maybe this is why i like uglier men but when i was 14 i remember talking somewhere online and there was this one british guy who was branigger ig maybe not exactly a pedo like most but he was kind of retarded he really liked me for some reason ig because i was edgy he was 16 i think i only really got with him because he asked me to and he lived close to me irl we never met up i remember he was kind of weird but nice ig i hated that he larped as Christian and a nazi while being a faggot not that i cared but it was weird that he was contracdiciorty and it was weird idk i remember him being really ugly kind of like the cuckjeetvarient but not as bad because his jawline was fine just chubby i think he's kind of cute now thinking back about it but i wish i never edated him because its weird and i know one of my friends who was also ig a psudo branigger but he was against pedophilia and he would have told me to stop i feel bad now because it was weird and i know my friend would have hated it ig it doesnt matter much now because of how long ago it was and that im not doing that stuff now im glad he never did anything sexual with me i wouldnt have entereained it anyways but it would have been bad if he did i kind of miss my old friend though he was the only person i feel like i could have talked it really and we were in some of the same communities sometimes we used to get drunk and talk about life together it was nice we talked all the time we used to troll random faggots online too usually other faggots or places that were filled with redditors that got mad at anything he had a lot of money ig so he could always pay the people moderating the places to get us unbanned and keep pissing people off sometimes he'd talk to me high on meth or weed and he was funny one day he told me he was going to stop using the internet though and i was going to ask if he could give me his number but i forgot to ask before he left because he didnt like how degenerate everyone on the internet was we were friends since i was 12 i miss him a lot now all my other friends from then i either had to cut off for being too weird or they left all the places i was on i hate it i wish they were still my friends now they made me feel less lonely
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i love being skinny becaus i dot have to drink as much alcohol to get reallt drunk but i do wish i had better alcohol like rum
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i wish i wasnt a autistic retarded disabled fuck because maube i could still be in school and i would have had a bf by now or even wouldnt even be gay and women would be nice to me and i would have a gf ofc now idk if i could ever have a gf or ever trust a foid with dating one now but idk if i could even trust a gay man because he might break up with me if i say i dont want to have sex i hate feeling like im too weird to be normal but too normal to be weird and be find aroundw weird people or normies
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i love you i love you i love you why wont you love me please i love you
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i want to know wehere to find a bf idk where to get one im not sure if i ever will i want to be with a nice normal man but idk if those exist for faggots i need someone its been too long being alone i hate being a social isolate why did i hae to act so retarded in school before to the point i had tobe homeschooled fukc me i hate this im not even smart like stallman to where i can do something productive with my life and start something big im just a retard fuck me
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i dont get why i have to be so alone i dont feel like im a bad person maybe i am idk i dpnt get why people hate me the only [eopple who like me is my mom but event then i feel like i put my parents through so much shit and i feel so bad for it they used to blame me alot not as much now but i bet they still think that i ruined stuff for them i hate this i dont like it if they;re nice to me just because of how they think i feel i want to fix it
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i wish i could please a straight man not in sexaul way ofc but in a romantic way i want to be able to make a man happy so he could make me happy idk how gays are irl i already said that before but online they're so weird i feel like the only normal men or straight men ofc i could never date one and i dont want to make one feel weird because i come onto him but i wish i could just be with one i hate being a man but theres no way to fix that i just have to live with it
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i remember back in elemetry school people ahted me and i remember when the girls would always be mean to me i remember sometimes one of the would hurt me when the teacher would have us lined up and she would pinch me and give me a mean bitch stare when the teacher wasnt looking i hate them i hate it that they;re rpobably happy in a relationship a man now and im not i hate it i want them to die but ig its kind of selfish to say that but i just still dont understand it even i notice in some of these places where some spegey kids go to like some church school thing there are pooners and trannies and they act worse than i did back in elementry and people accomodate them just fine but no one ever did for me and i hate it i think it made me a better person ig that everyone hated me because i dont act like that anymore but peoole still dont like me and i dont have a bf andthese annoying pooners probably do and they act so bad i hate it they should feel how i feel they should have been hated they shouldnt be loved by these people because society tells them to like them they should have gone through waht i gone through i hate them so much i hate they can be so annoying and happy and probably have bfs or ig maybe gfs yet im still alone they just fucking scream alll the time and larp autism im so glad im not around them anymore or was much at all but i hate it that they exist God why cant i have bf thats nice i need an escape from this world besides videogames and music i need someone to be withe ven my parents arent enough they're amazing i love them so much but i dont think i talk to them much and idk if ic an communcate well with them i just need a good bf to be with so bad but msybe he would be like the people i hate probably would it makes me so sad i hate that women have access to such good men i want that i hate that i cant have that i just have to be a whore if i want a man but i dont want to be a whore i just want to be normal the closes i would ever get to sex is cuddling i reallly want to cuddle with a man oe hug or have any interaction with one romantically i hate waiting i cant stand it anymore i need it now but idk how to get it now ive been so isolated from society for so long im not sure how to talk to people well or even get a boyfriend its weird tha i just want to fall into my laps ig i just need to work for it but i find it so hard becase talkng to people is so hard idk how to it as well as neurotypcal people i find it so hard becayse if i start talking about my interests they just ignore me idk why fuck why cabt i find anyone i need a bf so fcukigng bad
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i only v\ever had 2 ebfs before but i hate it because it was really weird they were borth oldert than me i already talked about my second but my first was like 15 and i was 13 i hate it now because i was so lonely ig he didnt take too much advantage of me and he was just kind of nice in a way but i feel kind of weird about it still he was like a femboy or whatever and i feel gross about ever considering him my bf im so glad i never did anything sexual with any of these people they were so weird but i hate that they probably all have irl bfs now and im still stuck as single because im so isolated from everyone if i was in an actual school and could be around people npt only woud i provbably not even be gay but i would probably even have a bf or gf but i dont because im cut off from people i dont have anyone i feel like so many other people do i was told of people that are 16 ro 13 and have gfs nad bfs and im 16 now and still single wtf is going on why does it have to be this way i just want someone and i feel like i cant even get it i bet that if ever found a man he'd be older than me anyways and i couldnt date him fuck my life i hate this
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i miss all my old firneds on the internet especially my best friend he was so cool i already talked avout him and that he left the internet but i still really miss all these people except the really weird ones i remember when i turened 14 and one of my old friends from when i was 12 turned out to be a pedo/lolicon and i hate to cut off al contact with him i told all his friends avout what he did and most of them stopped being friends with him idk why he had to be like that ig he was a 3rd world shitskin but before that he was nice idk how he got so fucked up i hate that he did i feel bad for him in a way i think he uses lainchan now before that i knew he used the sharty and 4chan idk if he does anymore im glad im not friends with him anymore because of how h e is
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hily shiy i cant even taste anything anymore or feel anything lol maybe i should make wine more
good thing is that ig that i have a lot more wine so its not im running out soon
good thing is that ig that i have a lot more wine so its not im running out soon
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