I don't feel special or human anymore

[LesothoSoldier1488]

I never had a point in life since i was little, which is how i never answered "what will you be in future" question, which is about my future job in a semantic game. I never thought what i would be in future and rather just downloaded and played a shit ton of games from google play up to 200 games. That's also how i ended up in a bad school today. I still don't have a target.
The only thing that made me special so far in my life was being a soyteen, which i was really excellent at. I even had a little brother akin to Caca, just like Nate in soylore. I was pretty much the perfect soyteen. That is until Quote decided to fuck out of everyphono via 2 pph-draining holocausts, which is how i am both banned for being a shitskin and underage.
Is there's something other that makes me special? I have high grades. But i am not fond of that. Because all of my teachers and including my school system is a huge ZOG bot, data center even. They literally recommend books made by a communist(Livaneli) that openly talks about 'p in his book (Balıkçı ve Oğlu). Which is again the reason i don't take pride from my high grades.
So in conclusion, i am just a machine that has high grades. I don't feel anything special about me. I already told i didn't experience any friendship since 2014 in this thread. I am sure nobody will call a person who didn't make a friend for 12 years a "Human", which is also why i think i am no longer a human.
I really have a sad story. But atleast i can atleast cheer me up with these Buff HTSMs that nobody besides me uses.

 

[Quint]

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I never had a point in life since i was little, which is how i never answered "what will you be in future" question, which is about my future job in a semantic game. I never thought what i would be in future and rather just downloaded and played a shit ton of games from google play up to 200 games. That's also how i ended up in a bad school today. I still don't have a target.
The only thing that made me special so far in my life was being a soyteen, which i was really excellent at. I even had a little brother akin to Caca, just like Nate in soylore. I was pretty much the perfect soyteen. That is until Quote decided to f&!#k out of everyphono via 2 pph-draining holocausts, which is how i am both banned for being a shitskin and underage.
Is there's something other that makes me special? I have high grades. But i am not fond of that. Because all of my teachers and including my school system is a huge ZOG bot, data center even. They literally recommend books made by a communist(Livaneli) that openly talks about 'p in his book (Balıkçı ve Oğlu). Which is again the reason i don't take pride from my high grades.
So in conclusion, i am just a machine that has high grades. I don't feel anything special about me. I already told i didn't experience any friendship since 2014 in this thread. I am sure nobody will call a person who didn't make a friend for 12 years a "Human", which is also why i think i am no longer a human.
I really have a sad story. But atleast i can atleast cheer me up with these Buff HTSMs that nobody besides me uses.

Post so good I'm going to make an alt just to giga react it a second time

 

[Wordsalot]

/blog/

 

[Chud]

You should make furniture

 

[ARKHAN THE BLACK]

You dont have a special meaning to anything or anyone in this world when you're young. Its something you develop with time and effort over many months and years. I'll post more later.

 

[LesothoSoldier1488]

You dont have a special meaning to anything or anyone in this world when you're young. Its something you develop with time and effort over many months and years. I'll post more later.

true, it's no coincidence that most scientists get their school or teenage era skipped in their biography.
It's still heartbreaking to have my bright years go empty, though.

 

[StudioExcréments]

Just sounds like high functioning autism.