I am not schizophrenic but I have many mental health problems but i dont think they are disablign for me i am pretty high funcitoning but i dont feel well i dont do well i might have a meltdown who even am i i dont feel good what is me? i think i rely too much on others i dont really know who i am i need for others to tell me that i cannot keep that up i keep getting hurt so much and it hits incredibly hard because when someone hurts me it hurts the image of myself beca use if someone is willing to do bad things to me that means they dont respect me and that means i myself am a worse person
what does any of that matter i wish i was just lonely so i could figure out who i am on myself right now i rely on others too much maybe i should be a social recluse? no i love people i want to be surrounded by people but maybe it's just that i seek comfort? maybe i dont really love people, i just want meaningless attention that makes me feel alive oh God what is wrong with me i need some help
