Aias diary

here's is part of my slowburn a24 short book ik this depressed suicidal fourm would love

Aia laid down and hugged it so tightly, she didn’t know if anyone was thinking about her, but she hoped to everything that someone out there thought about her even for just for a second. She couldn’t stop crying, it pained her to be in this cycle, and she couldn’t stop it, so many promises she made to those she cared about, even more so herself. She just wanted someone to be thinking about her, desperately she wanted someone to think about her. Even if her skin was picked, cut, and cold, even if she looked like she was on drugs. “Just anyone, I just hope someone is, please please…”

I couldn’t bring myself to look at anything, just crying because I'm crying, because I know I wouldn't want to cry I am sorry I’m crying I love me, I don’t want to sob any more. I don't want to let go of this pillow, I don't want to let go of anyone ever again, I don’t want to let go of myself, I want to hold myself forever and never let go. Aia I love you so much, God please let me hear this please “In the name of the Father, the Son, the Holy Spirit, amen” please God let someone love me, please teach me to love me please please please.

I shouldn’t talk to myself, or people that aren’t there, it's like the saying “If you scream in an empty forest are you even screaming?” no point in doing it. There's not a point in doing a lot of things, I can choose to stay alone here or spend every hour working, I don’t want to work. I’m made for love I just want to spread joy and happiness, I'm sorry I didn't do that earlier, I’m sorry so so very sorry. I should just, go to sleep, I mean also laying and imagining a world of my own is also enjoyable, a world where I’m nice, but I am nice!

am I a good writer shoormwritercord? And is warrior-p better at writing?

 

[Goot]

Also fartchungus had "stalinsex" in its email address

Yup, noobin

 

[supernigga]

Lewdtenant Isan

...

 

[Keyed zaryan]

Aiabooysen was also an annoying unfunny dummy so maybe it's in his nature to be that way, but I don't think he was just limited to behaving like a commiereal woman

Aiabooysen also pretended to be a sharty dev and got into fights constantly which seems much more fun for the larper. I think most people would get bored of the noobnin character after a couple days at most.

 

[shekel]

There's also a serious chance Aiabooysen might actually be a noob named Kevin King
>Aiabooysen is confirmed to be active on nationstates.net and the leader of a nation there named "Bro' Kinaba". The flag of Bro Kinaba was xer old pfp
>Searching up Bro Kinaba on Youtube results in this video

>Same person who did the "I am proud to be white" video that's sometimes posted on the sharty
https://www.youtube.com/@kevinking2333

 

[Barry]

The sibling idea could be possible, after all Aiabooysen was also a politisperg. Look at xer banner. Bro'Kinaba is xer nation in nationstates.com. Also that banner was made by a "Lewdtenant Isan." @ThatGuyWithTheGlasses discovered this kek

Oh yeah I'm just gonna reveal this. Luck45 might be Gape Newell from the 'ki. I cannot prove it for sure but it's plausible

There's also a serious chance Aiabooysen might actually be a noob named Kevin King
>Aiabooysen is confirmed to be active on nationstates.net and the leader of a nation there named "Bro' Kinaba". The flag of Bro Kinaba was xer old pfp
>Searching up Bro Kinaba on Youtube results in this video

>Same person who did the "I am proud to be white" video that's sometimes posted on the sharty
https://www.youtube.com/@kevinking2333

That's why he was called General noobnin

 

[supernigga]

There's also a serious chance Aiabooysen might actually be a noob named Kevin King
>Aiabooysen is confirmed to be active on nationstates.net and the leader of a nation there named "Bro' Kinaba". The flag of Bro Kinaba was xer old pfp
>Searching up Bro Kinaba on Youtube results in this video

>Same person who did the "I am proud to be white" video that's sometimes posted on the sharty
https://www.youtube.com/@kevinking2333

Could've just been a noobYAN but he had to attentionwhore as a foid dev... Tisk tisk

 

[Shiny]

This blog is now claimed by the Rick May Truthers

 

[Nikizno]

Oh yeah I'm just gonna reveal this. Luck45 might be Gape Newell from the 'ki. I cannot prove it for sure but it's plausible

Ohnonono Gape bros... I thought we hated the shroom.

 

[Apeson]

good fucking grief, i don't have to bear with reading this cringe ass larp anymore. The kissy kissy shit was shemmycuck tier.

 

[Goot]

Oh yeah I'm just gonna reveal this. Luck45 might be Gape Newell from the 'ki. I cannot prove it for sure but it's plausible


That's why he was called General noobnin

 

[Nikizno]

The kissy kissy shit was shemmycuck tier.

I thought it was weirdly wholesome

 

[Apeson]

I thought it was weirdly wholesome

Obviously you'd think that.

 

[shekel]

I still don't understand how I got unbanned from the Sharty if he wasn't actually a dev.
I ask this because, wasn't General noobnin banned from the Soysphere for supposedly posting 'p from a VPN? There's a very real chance Musdummy may have let a pedophile gain backend access.

 

[Hierophant]

I assume he stole the foid pictures from some private real womancord. The cacay pictures he posted on the schlog are probably also stolen, though I don't doubt he really does look that gross. He probably gets off to people thinking he's a woman. Anyway he made it really obvious that it was him when he asked why Shroot thought he was noobnin and then couldn't go 5 minutes without playing his hand and revealing he knew it was because of an IP match. noobnin is probably one of the most boring caca to use either site so it's not surprising nobody recognizes him when he isn't talking about communism. Probably only larps as a commie in the first place because everyone just ignores him otherwise. Kinda like yiaagwayb.

Should have just skipped this entire thing and banned them immediately like people wanted. Would've saved a month.

I still don't understand how I got unbanned from the Sharty if he wasn't actually a dev.
I ask this because, wasn't General noobnin banned from the Soysphere for supposedly posting 'p from a VPN? There's a very real chance Musdummy may have let a pedophile gain backend access.

Isn't gapenewell a janny on the wiki? If he really is luck45, It was probably him that got you unbanned.

 

[Goot]

I thought it was weirdly wholesome

@Shroot Let me brazil react this

 

[Apeson]

I still don't understand how I got unbanned from the Sharty if he wasn't actually a dev.
I ask this because, wasn't General noobnin banned from the Soysphere for supposedly posting 'p from a VPN? There's a very real chance Musdummy may have let a pedophile gain backend access.

I think it was a coincidence. Quote said he'l sometimes go through bans and unban people.

 

[Cat]

I still don't understand how I got unbanned from the Sharty if he wasn't actually a dev.
I ask this because, wasn't General noobnin banned from the Soysphere for supposedly posting 'p from a VPN? There's a very real chance Musdummy may have let a pedophile gain backend access.

jannies lurk this site lol, also general noob is too dummyed to be a sharty dev

 

[Barry]

jannies lurk this site lol

It was in dms doe

 

[Apeson]

It was in dms doe

didn't he talk about it publically right before doe? I think also doll offered to unban but i might be confusing it with other instance of people asking to be unbanned on here.
If the real woman actually had sharty admin powers to unban he would have posted proof in the form of a screencap from musdummy's account like he said. Besides i doubt musdummy would give access to his janny acount to some literal who dev knowing the risks of it.

Apart from that, there was never a timestamp photo posted. The idea that "her" boyfriend didn't let "her" even doe "she" had already posted what were in theory photos of even "her" back makes no logical sense and leaves the larp pretty clear.

 

[Cat]

It was in dms doe

still wouldn't make sense because he doesn't have "admin stuff"