i think that if i hadn't of been so dummyed during elementary i would still be in school & a lot of the things i complain about wouldn't be a problem. i dont think if that was my case i would have jumped around le epik internets communities my entire life, but i think i'd rather be normal and have more connections irl than online ig. i waited 16 years, the year will be over in another 6 monthts. in that time i have wanted a partner, but i dont think that will ever be possible in my current living situation. i really hope that college is going to be when i start making connections with people, but i dont think thats going to happen. im sure i'll be doing it in some way that still keeps me isolated from everyone. idk if i will even make it through college, i think i genuinely am dummyed or at least i've been becoming dummyed.