i remembered psychologists are useless because when you tell them youre dull and life feels boring despite any circumstances they will still try to change said circumstances.
"I dont really like doing things i used to do, i still do them and do different things, but get no pleasure from it"
"DURRRR WELL HAVE YOU TRIED DOING SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY? DURRR"
they will also always blame you if you dont get any joy from things, and say the problem is that youre not doing said things even when you fucking are. i hate them.