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[worldatwar]

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[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

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[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 18th, 2025: Another day of work, I woke up at 6:00am and got out of bed to make myself some cereal with milk. I brewed myself some coffee from the giant container I bought and mixed in some of the sugar-free vanilla powdered creamer, I dropped 2 sugar cubes into my coffee and drank it while I watched some more Redeemed Zoomer on the television. I grabbed my red towel and round metal bowl and filled it with hot water, but I didn’t add any baking powder to the bowl just to test something, last time I did it with the baking soda the water was kind of dirty, but this time I wanted to see if it would be dirty, it was not save for a few hairs plus dandruff. I then got dressed and walked to my bus stop to get to work, I got there at 10:03am and saw Max, Jesse, John, and the dubstep guy working on a delivery. I got to work and started on helping John and the dubstep guy with 3 pallets of items to put on the floor downstairs. The Italian lady was there, she was going around the store writing something on a clipboard. We worked well together until I went to bring stuff upstairs, at that point I overheard Paula and her manager were talking about ticket prices for concerts, talking about $200 tickets being extreme and mentioning them getting up to $1,000 for Beyoncé concerts. I got the pasta special for lunch, during it, James the Greater posted on his snapchat story about these Miku Expo events, one in Singapore on November 19th, another on in Kuala Lumpur on November 22nd, and a third one in Seoul, South Korea on November 29th, he told me he might be going to Seoul. As I was stocking the beverage cooler, a loud screech came from my walkie-talkie. A bit later as I was nearly done with the beverage cooler. I heard this Black woman over the loud speaker:
“The fuck is you talking about?”
We were shocked, a bit later the talking came back and it was apparently a call between two Black women that somehow got onto the loudspeakers. Lebanon was confused and we went to Luis to ask if someone hijacked his computer, Jesse found out it wasn’t actually someone hijacking into the speakers because fAsherah accidentally did something while transferring a call to someone other department and then someone hung up resulting in some issues. I continued with my work and while Biker was talking to Sabrina, he told her that he only has 2 days of work left before he changes jobs to become a furniture salesman. I had one last task of wiping down all the item tag, I first started my first 15 minute break buying these mini tiramisu things, I gave one to Sabrina, fAsherah, and Paula before eating all the rest. I made my way from the front to the back to do the item tag rack wiping, I was tired of this task at this point so I was getting a bit lazy. Jill and Biker mocked me for not moving the tag one time. I made my way back upstairs to write in my blog a bit before eating the final fruit leather strip Jesse gave me. I helped John with one task before working on all the closing tasks starting at 5:00pm, I got done with them at 6:32pm and clocked out then, seeing Old Ozzy Osborne on the way out. I ran to my bus and got on at 6:38pm, the bus originally said it was goint to get to the Friday night even stop at 6:56pm but due to someone in a wheelchair getting on and bad traffic light luck, it got delayed to 7:10pm when I got off but I got into the house through the back, it was the middle of a prayer for Bl. Francis Jordan, with Cliffe, Stuart, Jeremiah, Collum, and a few others there. From what I’ve heard, Francis Mary of the Cross Jordan was born in Waldshut, Germany on June 16th, 1848 and died September 8th (my birthday) 1918 in Tafers, Switzerland, he was most important for founding the Society of the Divine Saviour, AKA the Salvatorians which was the order the speaker was in. We then read through a printed out excerpt of Bl. Francis Jordan’s book dated to May 11th, 1894:
<...This zeal must be accompanied by wisdom. Since most of you are still young and inexperienced, wisdom is doubly necessary. Zeal without wisdom wreaks havoc. We must be led by true wisdom, not by the wisdom of the world…
We talked mostly about the third sentence, Cliffe told me about this time he was evangelizing with Stuart where this guy had joined them who thought he was Jesus and would go up to those who had spoken to the duo afterwards ruining all the goodwill built up by them, the duo had to leave to get the nutjob off their trail. We then talked about what we did to help those in our life become more Christian, Cliffe talked about how he helped his parents and siblings start going to church more by being happy. Elijah came in late with his ID which said he was a Deckhand on him. He talked about his dad being Adventist and his mom being slightly more Catholic. I went and told them about Asherah lying about wanting to go to mass with me the Sunday after All Saints Day last year. I made sure to play the “pronoun game” (using gender neutral pronouns to strip any inbuilt bias so they wouldn’t do the classic women are wonderful effect and go on the defensive of her) I didn’t even mention Zephyr even though Elijah probably knows her. We then got done and I ate some salmon over the sink, using its skin as a plate. They were making a fire outside and playing this game where you had to either toss a football or kick a soccerball over to another person in a ring, making sure that nobody has both. The fire was in the middle and we almost kicked it into there twice. I started reading my 210 book apocrypha book and I overheard Stuart say:
“Truthnuke!”
I couldn’t stop laughing, I showed Stuart and two others my book and the funny thing in the back with the super schizo timeline of history, especially near the end:
<AD 1859 | Charles Darwin published On the Origin of Species which denies the historicity of Genesis and argues that nature, rather than God, explains the development of life
<AD 1903 | Heavier-than-air flight
<AD 1906 | Azusa Street Revival begins the modern Pentecostal movement
<AD 1914-1918 | World War I
<AD 1939-45 | World War II
(I don’t know why they removed the first 2 digits of 1945 but not do the same for 1918
<AD 1945 | The United Nations founded: the first proto-global movement
<AD 1948 | Israel reestablished: “that generation will not pass away”
<AD 1967 | Israel recaptures Jerusalem
<AD 1987 | The Temple Institute founded to rebuild the Temple in Jerusalem
<AD 1989 | The World Wide Web invented
<AD 2015 | World leaders begin a process for total control and global transformation: Agenda 2030
<AD 2017 | A “Great Sign” in the heavens {Rev. 12:1-2; cf. Gen 1:14; Lk. 21:11, 25)
<AD 2023-2026 | Alien disclosure and deception underway (2 Thess. 2:7-11; Rev. 12:3-12; Gen. 6:1-4); general AI technology nears (Rev 13:14-15); technology for the Mark of the Beast becomes prevalent and ubiquitous (Rev. 13:16-17)
I went inside to play a number game, Cliffe was inside with his shoes off and dirty feet that stunk up the room, I instantly went back to see Jeremiah and the priest talking and just mopped the floor for them. At 10:05pm it was near time for nighttime liturgy of the hours but I needed to catch my bus so I ran to the bus stop but then ran back to go to the bathroom, I ran over and got on with a very neurotic bus driver. I made my way home and completed my blog entry before going to bed.

Bible reading progress: 1 Esdras 6:1 - 1 Esdras 9:55 (End)

Song of the Day: Murder on the Dancefloor - Sophie Ellis-Bextor (2001)

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 19th, 2025: Saturday today, I woke up at 6:00am and got up a bit later to browse the internet, I had the last of my breakfast and drank some of the coffee with the coconut creamer. At 6:21am James the Greater messaged me:
<This should be the amount going forward
<[picture for a WiFi bill being $83.16]
We then had this conversation:
>I’ll send you $42
>Done
<Did my request go through before?
>No
<Weird
<I got your payment though, thanks!
I never understood why James needed and had such a high bill for better internet speeds, back on my $26 WiFi bill, I didn’t have to deal with that but he does some streaming, I have never seen any of his Twitch streams, if he even streams on Twitch. I watched a bit of YouTube but I didn’t have time to try the hair soak thing again. I got into work after riding the bus and clocked in at 9:23pm, I first got to work on this small pull upstairs which was 2 1 cubic foot crates (the ones where you can fit 4 1 gallon of milk containers in) and 2 boxes, I took them downstairs and stocked them quickly, my second task of the day was to clean the bathrooms 3 times throughout the day, I found a bottle of Pine Sol spray to help me with this task and talked with Sabrina a bit beforehand doing the beverage cooler. I was doing pretty ok with it. I continued with my work until I had my first 15 minute break. I went upstairs and sat across from Sabrina on the same table, she was eating from a container of peaches. She talked about how tired she was and I agreed with her. I asked her for a peach slice and she gave it to me. I continued to work on my tasks and encountered Hill a few times. I had Jesse talk to me about losing my boxcutter that he issued me yesterday. I made sure to put it back. While I was ordering lunch from Biker, he asked me:
“Has anybody ever called you Gemersaurus before?”
I replied:
“No they haven’t”
For lunch I had the pasta special, an Arizona iced tea, and some salt and pepper chips. This time Sabrina sat next to me and we talked more. I went back to work. I remember while walking down the stairs one time pretty fast and Tony was at the bottom, a bit later in the day, I saw Anne making this delivery that was an hour away, it was kind of small and I wondered why we even did that. I got all of my tasks done early. Later on while I was doing the trashes I encountered fAsherah and Anne’s replacement talking about drama with the Noahmusic guy on a different register. They told me that Old Ozzy Osborne was here and that she would harass this former employee and she rubbed the back of my hand and told me something that sounded like Old Ozzy Osborne. I continued with the trashes but a bit later as I was doing facing (Hill magically decided to not scrub the floor in the back) I went up to fAsherah and rubbed the back of her hand and joked:
“Wanna listen to my new 70s song?”
She laughed at that. I then clocked out at 7:00pm and walked to this bus route I hadn’t usually taken, I got on it a bit later and saw this Black woman with super short hair with her son, clearly a single mother. I got off on a bridge and walked to a Culvers nearby to have a value basket. I served my self some Sprite plus Pepsi for my dinner and loved the taste of it. I was deprived of Culvers for far too many days. I saw that one girl who loved Love Island but I just said hi. I then walked back to my bus and checked the bus schedule to see that there were no buses coming my way and I just started walking over. I got back home and then saw the one woman who did the weather thing from the symposium, we had this conversation spurred by her post on her story about going to a ColdPlay concert:
>Please don’t cheat on your husband.
<lolllll
<first show after that ordeal
<def will be into interesting to see what chris says
>Who’s Chris?
>Chris-Chan
<chris marten
>lead singer of coldplay
<noooo that's one of my hs friends
>lol I remember seeing you on Hinge and then I saw you post him on your story so I thought you were dating him.
Got left on read after that dummyed message, so I deleted it a while later. Can’t wait for my reputation to tank further. I got home and didn’t eat dinner. I went on Instagram and saw this post where this twitter user was pushing propaganda by saying that Gen Z tradwives should listen to the trad wives of Gen Boomer tradwives about what happens when you hit 40. You can tell this person was dummyed because they think that you should listen to what Boomers say about anything seriously, they truly do not give a shit about future generations because they’ll be dead by then, they ruined the housing market to drive up how much their houses will sell for, and by sell for I mean their kids won’t be seeing either the house or any inheritance. So anyways this guy in the comments basically implied that having a traditional, stable, and healthy romantic relationship meant that your husband would die from working at an asbestos factory, I called him out for trying to falsely tie them together. I wrote in my blog and then started Star Wars Episode II. I actually liked Anakin and Padmé’s romance, but I just couldn’t shake the similarities between Anakin Skywalker’s voice and notorious incel Elliot Rodger’s voice. At 10:15pm I finally completed Star Wars Episode II: Attack of the Clones. I took a shower. At 10:31pm, I was having mental issues which I shouldn’t entertain here or even with my therapist. I just went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Peaches - The Presidents of the United States of America (1996)

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 20th, 2025: Final day of my real job for the workweek, I woke up at 6:05am and went on my phone for a bit until I had some cereal and some coffee to go with it. I hopped on the bus at 7:55am and saw that one guy who was a singer at the Boomer church that had some eye issues. He sat down and immediately got out his magnifying glass to look at his phone. I got in and clocked into work at 8:24am. I saw my task list and it was so obvious that it was designed by Jesse to torture me, it had the items: check the trashes once very 2 hours, stock the sauce aisle, stock the frozen aisle, portion 3 different types of flour into plastic containers, and clean under a lift which included having to put up some lift locks (I was never taught how to do the last task) The first task was honestly pretty smooth sailing because of how full the thing was in the first place. For the second task, I had found a lot of stuff that wasn’t there that I marked off on the clipboard. I went to the freezer and brought back some unlabeled items. Jesse told me to go back and label 7 boxes of the stuff. I brought it up front and stocked it, when I was heading back, I was going kind of fast so Matt said to me:
“Woah there Gemerson’s going supersonic!”
Now at this point I did another trash check before heading upstairs to do the flour portioning. I got the table wiped down and the tub for flour brought over, the new scale and labeler was there but I had no idea how to work the thing, also the scoop was missing. I got the scoop from Paula and had Jesse teach me the machine, which couldn’t measure the weight and print out the label you needed at the same time. I got the 55 pound bag of flour out and cut a square hole on top of it to scoop the stuff out and weigh it. I set up my phone to watch some videos like two videos from The Historian’s Craft, one on if people in the Roman Republic thought their republic was declining then, and one on the Oxus civilization in Central Asia, my next one was Books You Can (Never) Read by TREY the Explainer about lost works. I then went on break and didn’t do much, when I got back, I finally started re-watching the video about the apocrypha of the New Testament by Wendigoon, recognizing that he forgot things like reviewing Acts of John, 3 Corinthians, Acts of Thomas, and a few others. I ordered a large prosciutto sandwich and a blood orange soda for lunch and had it while writing in my blog, I got back to work and was complimented on my apron that I had picked out by Jesse. When I got back, I worked on the rest of the semolina, which didn’t get everywhere and rendered the stickers near useless. I got done with this near closing time so I put the packages into crates and went down to start emptying the garbages. Jill was already on that despite it not being on his task list, it turns out that he didn’t even have anything on his closing task list other than face a portion of the store. I had to scrub the backroom floors without that new squeegee head that mysteriously vanished.
I asked Biker how old he was and he told me he was 46. Paula was looking for a mop to use so I told her about the one we keep upstairs. I cleaned the backroom and got out at 4:42pm, I hopped over to the bus line I almost never took and talked to this lady who was vaguely Eastern European about when the bus was coming, it came at 4:52pm but it never showed up on my tracking app, I took it to the bridge and walked over to church. I got in early and did a decade of the rosary. I saw this one girl I remember seeing on Hinge wearing a green dress, cutting off just above the knees which looked vaguely Japanese inspired. I never said anything to her. Father Palmer was presiding over the mass but Naomi of all people was doing the piano and leading the singing, I didn’t sing along because I felt empty and didn’t really like Naomi, the homily was ok. I went up to receive communion and then stayed back. It was the first time I ever left early before the closing song was done, I ran over to the grocery store and bought a 12 pack of red cream soda, I took the bus home and then opened my door and put 2 cans of the soda into James the Greater’s fridge for him to drink when he got back, I watched a bit more television and then had this conversation with the girl with severe peach fuzz posted some shit on her Instagram story about “this or that romance tropes” I replied to her:
>Which one of these are in the Bible?
She couldn’t find one out but I said that destined love might be in there depending on if you are a Calvinist or an Arminian. I took a shower and ended up bleeding a lot out of my nose. I got out and was finishing up my blog entry and was getting tired, because I needed to get . At 10:49pm, I noticed that on Snapchat maps, It showed that Lizzo was in someplace called Heping Township near Taipei, Taiwan. Come to think of it, I never heard Lizzo speak Chinese once in my entire time of knowing her. But we both want each other gone so it’s not like I’m going to hear her speak anymore.

Song of the Day: National Anthem of the Republic of China - Sun Yat-sen, Cheng Maoyun (1928)

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 21st, 2025: Woke up early in the morning at 6:05am to get breakfast and coffee before heading out to work. I got on the bus after posting on the Kiwifarm for a bit and waited for a while until the singer from the Boomer parish got on, he started looking at his phone with a magnifying glass yet again, I kind of want to ask him why he does that but it would be weird to ask. I got off the bus and went into my building. I got in at the same time as Zach A while he was wearing a tan suit and a fancy black wristwatch. I went in and turned on the lights with the exception of the ones near the window; we don’t need those lights on. I went to the coffee machine and scooped two scoops of coffee grounds into it to brew. It was nearing 9:00am so I got a cup and put 3 packets of stevia in it plus 2 shots of the sugar free brown sugar and cinnamon flavor syrup. I got into the meeting room and saw what looked like this tall African guy who was wearing a woman’s wig from a different organization. We did the whole thing through and surprisingly, the CEO wasn’t here so I couldn’t record one of his long winding speeches. I sipped a bit of my coffee during the thing and it was way too sweet for me. The meeting was done at 10:00am and I went over to Seth M and Ahwahn. Ahwahn told me that she was just doodling on her eInk tablet, I saw her zoom in and out to show her full doodle and it was notably slow. I told her:
“Honestly, I’d like to get one of those multi-color eInk monitors to have for writing so my eyes don’t wear out.”
She didn’t realize they can display multiple different colors. I went back to my spot and had 2 cards to print out, one for this new volunteer, and a second one that Staples sent me. I had to take a picture of the new volunteer for the first card and it was smooth sailing for the second one. A bit later near lunch time I saw Ahwahn in the meeting room eating lunch with two of her friends. I joked to her that she must have a very important meeting. I went over to the pizza place and saw the Black guy wearing a blue and white rosary. I ordered this buffalo chicken and barbecue sauce pizza, I ate it and then got back home to work. I had to set up more Microsoft Surface laptops. I attended to multiple of them in segments while in the library, while some of them would not take super long for the updates to install, others would be much longer, I was told to set up the PIN to 1998 for Seth M’s birth year. I had Staples call me over to help with a printer not printing the proper size she wanted. I went to the main printer and somehow fixed it magically. I took some printed items to this employee’s office that Staples told me the location of. Portia came in a bit later asking where they were and I told her:
“I just put them in her office”
I read some of my 210 book apocrypha while waiting for the updates to finish. I went outside to the front desk to see the website guy talking with 3 women there, the two Jojo’s Bizzare Adventure fans and the new intern, who turned out to be the sister to one of them, we were discussing our nicknames, he chose Keke, Makeke (Keke’s sister), Kiana, and Gege for me. I went back into the library room to get done with all of the computers. I took them over to Seth M to get them set up with the domain, we went to see the about to change it to domain computers, at this point Zarith C saw one of the rose gold colored computers and exclaimed:
“Can I have one of the gold ones?”
I corrected her:
“It’s rose gold, not gold, that’s the proper name of the color.”
“Yeah, give me the rose gold one.”
We saw that we couldn’t change it into domain computers because it was Windows 11 Home edition instead of Windows 11 Pro. Seth M gave out a huge sigh, he told me we were supposed to get 6 computers with Windows 11 Pro installed. I went out to go to the bathroom and came back to find 2 mini bags of Skittles and 2 pairs of Starbursts. I ate mine and worked on setting up the 2 computers that actually had Windows 11 Pro. Elon later talked to me and said:
“Hey you whose name I forgot, can you help us with the printer.”
I couldn’t get it to work with the printer. It was a huge hassle to set up but we got 2 computers set up. I saw the bill for the 8 computers we set up (not including the 2 with Windows 11 Pro) and saw it was roughly $5,700. Absolutely wasteful, I told him about getting my computer for $160, $110 for the computer, $20 for shipping, and $30 for the exact same battery that Torvalds had for his exact same model. I had one last computer that I had to update but it was near the end of the work day so I canceled the updates and set it up as normal. I clocked out for the day and took the bus home. When I got inside, I had some more of the red cream soda before getting the metal bowl and putting some baking soda in the bowl with hot water and soaked my head in it while watching YouTube on the television. The bowl was dirty this time so I dumped it out afterwards, I had arranged to go over to this woman's new apartment, who came early in late May of last year to see my new apartment, I got to her new apartment around 5:00pm but I tried texting her and calling her to no avail. While I was walking back home, I encountered fAsherah while she was walking to her friends apartment to hang out, I was super jealous of fAsherah and wanted to tell her off for mocking me. I got home to get a text saying that she (not fAsherah) had her nap last super long accidentally. I then made some ramen for dinner with my last egg from James the Great. I continued writing in my blog and made 2 more Biblejaks. At 7:21pm, Lucas wrote an email to me saying:
<Gemerson,
<Thank you for covering my Hospitality Ministry assignment for August 10th.
I finally took a shower and went to sleep.

Bible reading progress: 2 Esdras 1:1 - 2 Esdras 1:40

Song of the Day: Hot Love - T. Rex (1971)

 

[Tail]

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[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

dnr

^Seething

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 22nd, 2025: Second day of my volunteering today. I woke up at 6:15am and finished off my milk with my cereal for today. I went on KiwiFarms some more before it came time for me to take the bus to my volunteering spot. At 7:59am, I got on the bus and sat across from a Orthodox Jew wearing a kippah with a long beard, he also possessed a green and brown pillow with gold embroidered Hebrew text, there was a house on it that I didn’t recognize, to be honest, it might have been just a bag, also the bearded guy came on who always uses a magnifying glass. I got off and walked into my building to get started for the day. I brewed some coffee with the machine by unplugging it and plugging it back in again. I had absolutely nothing to do for the entire day task wise so I made my rounds multiple times throughout the day. Later on I found out through social media that Ozzy Osbourne died today at the ripe old age of 76, it was a travesty because he was a super good musician. Kiana disappeared for a while so I had to do front desk duty for a few minutes while she was gone. I asked the website guy when she was coming back and he told me:
“When you’re up here, you’re here forever!”
I laughed. But Kiana soon came back and I was relieved of my duty. I looked at the website some more to find an error with a new change which consisted of a missing space, I thought it over to the website guy and saw the Daeguite on the way, I talked to her and she said she was going to leave early because of her other job. At 10:26am, I started to write in my diary on Google Docs with my home computer booted up and made a good amount of progress before Makeke sat one computer away from me. At 10:55am, the peach fuzz girl posted on her Instagram story this:
<It is actually alarming to me, how many folks think people not of their particular religious group "aren't good like us" or "aren't joyful like us". Other people are human! You're not better than them bc you're religious, and actually you should be developing humility not whatever this is.
I shut my computer off and then went to the balcony while I left my phone on the charger. I got on the balcony and tried to get out to no avail because the door locked behind me, I sat out there for 20 minutes until I was let in by a kind woman. She told me she had worked here for over 20 years and never had the issue ever again. I went over to the pizza place for lunch, being just behind Portia while we were both walking there. They finally had the Philly Cheesesteak pizza slice and I got that along with a soda before walking back and getting into work. I was feeling kind fo woozy at this time and due to Seth M not being in the office today. I decided to leave early, putting the printer back and walking over to my bus stop. Plus I had a date at 5:00pm with this woman from Beaver Dam, Wisconsin. I got on and got off at my home but didn’t do much for a few hours. Mostly just scrolling on my phone while cleaning up all the dishes in my sink. I thought of going to get my laundry done but decided against it because of the heat watch and the limited time I had, I didn’t do it. I had a shot of the blood orangecello before my date. At around 4:40pm I walked over to the taco place we were going to be eating at. When I got in, I discovered that there was no tables inside the building for us to eat at so I sent her this Snapchat message at 4:53pm:
>There’s no place to eat inside but you can walk down to this red building to sit.
She didn’t reply so I went on a walk for a bit. 5:00pm passes and there’s still no sign of her in the slightest; I continued walking around waiting for her to show up when I got this Snapchat message at 5:12pm:
<idk where i am tbh
We discussed back and forth about street directions until she finally figured her way over to the restaurant. We put both of our orders in, I got a beef burrito while she got a cheese quesadilla. She was kind of friendly so far and we walked over to a nearby park to find somewhere to eat, these 4 benches were being occupied by 3 Black women and the other set of benches was occupied by an entire Black family doing a cookout. I wish I was invited. We continued walking as she told me she lived an hour away and was going to be staying there for the school year despite living on campus her first 2 years. We sat on this stone bench like thing and ate on that. I only had one of my burritos along with some of the rice and beans which came with it. I talked about going on a walk once we finished our meal and she said something about 2nd places being deadly on date. So we just moved over on the stone bench to somewhere in the shade. We talked about Star Wars, she told me she watched episodes I through VII and got spoiled that Han Solo dies in Episode VII but couldn’t care after that. She somehow didn’t know who George Lucas was. She had us walk over to her car and we walked down the wrong street before getting in. I drank the last of her cherry cola celsius because she was talking a lot about it. We facetimed her friend and she talked about her Instagram accounts. She’s a psychology major who’s thinking of getting her masters. I ended up getting her phone number and the first picture I sent her was a picture of her side profile, she was disgusted but I was feeling kinda confident, I flirtatiously pinched her double chin. I asked to kiss and she agreed, she was very assertive and had her hand on my face, she had to instruct me to not move my lips and stop pecking. At 8:00pm she drove me back to her place and we had one final kiss, I told her to text me when she got home and she drove back to Beaver Dam. I ate a uncooked block of ramen and realized I left my leftovers in her car and then took a shower before seeing on her Instagram that she posted a story of the photos I took with the Jojo Siwa cover of Bette Davis Eyes playing and the text saying:
<petition to get straight men off the camera app
I laughed so hard and then went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Bette Davis Eyes - Jojo Siwa (2025)

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 23rd, 2025: Woke up at roughly 6:00am to realize I didn’t have any milk for my cereal, so a bit after 7:00am I walked over to the convenience store to buy some milk, I also got Fruity Pebbles because that cereal was on a discount. I bought them and headed home. I ate the cereal and then at 9:28am, I started having visions tonight that Father Malachi was going to be telling me something along the lines of:
“Hey Gemerson, by the way multiple other people have come up to me to say you’ve been making them super uncomfortable and you just need to stop.”
I would have just quit the entire church altogether if my premonition became true. I walked over to the bus stop to get to the evangelizing house, but the bus map was screwing me over. I eventually got over there at 10:30am and walked downstairs to find Cliffe and Jeremiah working on setting up an exercise machine, I got some water and then went downstairs to see what to do. Cliffe had the task for me to grab a broom (which had only half the handle) and sweep off the cobwebs on the ceiling of the basement. I got so much dust in my hair and on me so I had to clean myself off upstairs, where I saw Stuart praying his rosary. Cliffe said to him:
“Do you have any homework to do?”
He replied:
“I’m a bit behind on art class but that’s about it.”
We went downstairs and I got some metal crucifix necklaces along with some plastic rosaries to give out. Stuart and I emptied out the tub which the dehumidifier emptied into. I found this book holder that I thought would work well with my bible but I found some stuff and a letter written to Cliffe inside which read:
<Dear Cliffe [City] 06/12/23
<Happy birthday!
<These two images (the washing of the feet and the hearing of the ten lepers very much talk about the mission you so sreal womanglyfeel is your vocation at this time in your life = serving the poor, bringing them closer to Christ and his Church. On the occasion of your birthday, I want to recoginze you for your sincere desire to respond to God’s call, to encourage you and to cout to support you with my prayers and sincere love for you. May the Lord show you even more clearly his plan for you, keep you healthy and close to the Heart of his Beloved Son Jesus Christ, our Lord and savior. Amen
<Your spiritual friend in Christ,
<Padre R
<I bought these cards from the Holy land when I was doing my sabbatical in 2015.
Cliffe told me that Elijah came earlier today to drop off some food from a food bank earlier today at like 8:30am despite the 3 fridges in the house being loaded full and THERE IS SO MUCH CANNED GOODS IN THE BASEMENT. I asked Cliffe:
“Has anybody gone evangelizing with you who you first evangelized?
He replied:
“Not yet.”
We decided to bike downtown to start evangelizing but Stuart didn’t know how to ride a bike so he just got the bus while Cliffe, Jeremiah, and I biked downtown in that order, I was riding the bike I got beforehand but Cliffe told me to stop because there was glass shards in the alley everywhere. At 11:30pm, we started biking and we got to the cathedral while there was a huge line outside to get the free lunch inside because someone had a heart attack or something inside. It was at this point we met up with Clyde and she was going to evangelize with us. Fuck! I gave Stuart a necklace to give to a guy he was converting. I saw the old Black guy who talks to himself sitting outside. He took off his shirt and then used it as a pillow. I felt so sad for him. Eventually this super tall real woman came over that was friends with Cliffe and Clyde, he introduced himself as Shay to us and shook our hands. Remember that one scene from 2003 Cat in The Hat movie where Mr. Humberfloob gets his hand shaken by the new employee (Jim McFlinnigan) and fires him on the spot and then immediately washes his hands with hand sanitizer while crying. I felt like that but without any spare hand sanitizer. We waited and I went with Stuart to evangelize this guy who reminded me of Eminem, he talked about hacking and was with his sister to get to eat, he was formerly addicted to crack and overdosed 8 times in his life, he said he was from Little Rock, Arkansas, he talked about not going to church because he said:
“I would burst into a ball of flames”
I noticed a tattoo of his sister’s 2 kids’ birthdates, one was February 3rd, 2011 and I forgot the other one, but we eventually went in and I ate with Cliffe. We went outside and they told me to recruit more people for Bible study. We walked over to the park at 1:00pm and recruited some people like a White woman, an older Black woman, and Shay’s friend. We tried to get through the Sunday readings but Shay and Clyde don’t know when to stop talking. Shay clearly didn’t shave and had dressed in such a way that demonstrates that. Eventually some people left and we didn’t even get to the Gospel reading because Shay was talking about her TikTok account. Shay had told us both her parents were on birth control, her dad was on a pill because he already had 15 kids and her mom got her tubes tied after her last daughter got run over by a car. And Shay was born with her umbilical cord wrapped around her neck, one thing we have in common, and was a hermaphrodite, one thing we don’t have in common. She’s 26 and recently got out of prison for something. Shay played this contemporary worship music for everyone to hear. Clyde and Jeremiah were talking off to the side while we waited on them and I was so thankful for Jeremiah. Clyde suggested this thing about a women’s Bible study group and said this:
“... and for some women, they either have husbands that divorced them or abusive husbands that they had to leave…”
I was tired because Clyde had talked so long that it was 2:51pm now. We got on this train line and took it over and we parted ways. Cliffe, Jeremiah, and I went back to the house to drop off our bikes, Stuart went to the bus intersection to evangelize there, and we biked back home, we did the liturgy of the hours and I got some water bottles and lemonade for Cliffe, he has diabetes. Jeremiah abandoned us to go to his aunt’s wedding. We called Stuart for him to hop on our bus so we could ride it to the hospital because Cliffe needed more medication. We talked to an obese Black woman on the bus, wearing a Sanrio backpack with crosses on it. Cliffe talked to her and she said she was pagan and wasn’t really acceptive to what we had to say. I totally wanted to flip the script on the Liberal and accuse her of cultural appropriation. There was this anime convention girl who was on the bus, while she was getting off, she accidentally dropped her phone opened to Discord and I grabbed it for her and gave it back, she said:
“Thank you!”
In a cheery voice. We got off near the hospital and we evangelized with one guy wearing a Milwaukee Bucks jersey, Stuart started off with the:
“What do you live for?”
Line and it worked. He told us he had a kid but the kid is with his cousin, he’s from Racine, and had difficulty in life, he’s Italian-American and was with the Salvation Army for a bit. I gave him a green rosary before we evangelized this other woman who wasn’t as receptive. We got onto our desired bus stop and we encountered the guy who lead the acolytes with us when I served for the Archbishop. He got off and then Stuart talked about this encounter with a poster that said “Destroy patriarchy, not the earth” and he started joking about patriarchy being good, Cliffe had to tell him to knock it off because he would give a bad impression to others of Catholicism. We got off and walked over to the church and the first person we saw was Father Palmer outside, he asked us for help fixing a stone bench, we did that and went in to see the feast. They had ribs and Father Malachi wasn’t here. Cardinal Harvey is celebrating his 50th year as a priest and would be here next Wednesday. When it came time to eat, I got 3 napkins, 1 for my lap, 1 tucked into my shirt, and 1 on the table, I ate the ribs with my hands and went up for seconds. At 6:36pm, I found out that Skeleton finally graduated from college and got Magna Cum Laude honors. I made my way into the church and then sat up front reading my Apocrypha bible. I wasn’t feeling as good and felt super fidgety. While I was walking to the back. I spotted Naomi but I didn’t address her. I went to the bathroom and got back. I couldn’t really take the goytunes much longer but soon Eucharistic adoration ended and I was up in the front row. I noticed a Sister in blue robes in the row behind me. During the normal mass, they had the girl I saw on Hinge leading the singing. I went to the bathroom to write in my blog again but I noticed Naomi leaning on the side of the pew looking depressed. I wanted to ask her if she was ok quickly but I saw her friend there. During communion, I saw some people like Rose, Elijah, his mom, Quinci, Elizabeth, Sideburns, the couple that would try to get me into a threesome if they weren’t Catholic, and a few others. Near the end, Father Palmer announced that his twin sister was here and she was the Sister sitting in the pew behind me. I went to the social after mass and talked to this new girl outside but she was kind of meh. I asked Quinci where Quinn was and she said:
“He’s gonna be back in late August. I’ll tell him you’ve been asking!”
I took the bus home after that and then took a shower, while I was doing that, I remembered how my friends were tolerating me less and less and I just snapped and chucked my red cream soda in the shower, it went everywhere and I had to clean it up crying, I remembered something bad. I went to sleep.

Bible reading progress: 2 Esdras 2:1 - 2 Esdras 6:29

Song of the Day: That’s Who I Praise - Brandon Lake (2024)

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 24th, 2025: Shitty day at work, I woke up and made myself a bowl of fruity pebbles along with some coffee. I had plenty of time to kill before I had to head to work so I made a Bibeljak and posted that, but I noticed in the comments on the booru that there was someone spamming messages with links embedded with child porn. I had to get Warrior-Z to help me to deal with the guy and he named him. I posted about it on KiwiFarms and this user named Bucephalus replied to me at 11:22am with the following:
<Did you report it to law enforcement and his ISP?
<Leak his IP, while you're at it.
But I don’t have admin permissions. Once that was dealt with. I continued to play some more Skyrim for once in an extremely long time. I completed a quest before I had to get dressed for work and I went to the bus stop. I checked my text messages to see this from my therapist:
<Are we meeting today at 915?
<Since I did not hear from you, I will assume we are not meeting. Please call me if you do want to meet.
I replied:
>We can meet next week Thursday at 9:15am
<Sounds good.
I hopped on and got off later before clocking in at 10:21am. I went into the back to see John and Jesse counting multiple wooden pallets filled with food. I had to check in every item on there yet I didn’t identify anything, John beat me in that. So I left Max and John to go upstairs to help Jesse but he just told me:
“Go back downstairs to help check in!”
And I did that but there were multiple pallets of stuff that was pissing me off, I was feeling extra angry all of the sudden. The noise of every little machine and object irritated me when it usually never does. Will was helping out while we loaded stuff onto the conveyor belt or put them on the cart. I yelled one time when I couldn’t hear Jesse and he got sort of aggressive, so I just backed down. While I was putting some cheeses in the cooler with the help of John, Jill came in and did the waist touching thing she has a habit of doing, I was not in the mood. While I was loading some meat into the freezer, I set one box on top of a container of giardinera while putting the other box in the freezer, it tipped over causing some of the olive oil to spill over and loudly yelled:
“FUCK!”
I put the two boxes into the freezer haphazardly before grabbing a roll of towels to clean up the oil. I had Matheus joke with me about the mess and I just told him:
“Shut the fuck up!”
Before I got mostly completed with my task. I heard from Matt that Ignacio was interviewing someone today for a job, when I went upstairs to see him for a different task, I saw him at the computer so I asked one of his bosses:
“Wait is he on the job interview.”
And he responded:
“Yep!”
A while later, he walked downstairs from near the drinks with a purple haired girl. I went on my lunch break and ordered the pasta special and purchased it from fAsherah. I went upstairs and ate the bowl of pasta and there was just so much hardly cooked garlic cloves. I went back to work on the beverage cooler and had a lighter load. We were all out of the Spretcher’s cream soda. I saw Mr. Blundstone coming here outside of work. My next task on my list was to stock the beverage aisle. I went upstairs with my list I had made and took it down. When I brought it down before my first 15 minute break. I was putting it on the shelf when Jill came over to me, I knew what she was going to do so I tried to get out of the way of her. She did the hand on the waist thing saying:
“You’ve been avoiding me Gemerson!”
I was absolutely pissed off and didn’t want to be touched. I continued stocking while not talking to her and then went on my break. I saw Sabrina sitting by herself doodling something which was some legs and a giant grey ball.
“What are you drawing?”
I inquired.
“It’s not complete yet but it’s supposed to be a guy having a chain on his leg.”
She replied. I continued with my break before getting back to work. My next task for the day was to package 10 cheese lasagnas in the garage, I went out there and started on that, I got them in 5 stacks of 2 boxes each and hit them with the heat gun from left to right. I didn’t listen to any music for the time but I was calming down by now so it was pretty much ok. I got back and faced a good portion of the store. I asked Anne when her next delivery was and she told me:
“It’s at 5:30pm.”
However I wouldn’t be able to make it because I would have to start on closing. It came time for me to take my second break so I did mostly writing for that break, I had Bill touch me on the shoulders and say:
“Hey hey Gemerson, how are you doing?”
I gave him the usual:
“Good!”
I got off of my break and started on the closing tasks, first cleaning the back floor. I tried some new squeegee heads but they all had chips in them which let water escape. I looked in the meat room and saw the new one I specifically got for the back room in there. I swapped it for a chipped one. I did the break room, the bathrooms, I emptied all the garbages, got the stuff from outside inside, and finally faced up the entire store. I clocked out at 6:45pm and took the bus home. I listened to some music on my Xubuntu laptop. I really needed to get rid of my old headphones. I talked with the girl I went on a date with on Snapchat some more and joked around with her because she sent me a picture of her wearing some boxers and a sweatshirt. I did not have dinner really but I drank some of James’ fiber mix he still has. I took a shower and then finally went to sleep near 12:00pm.

Song of the Day: Barbra Streisand - Duck Sauce (2010)

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 25th, 2025: I woke up at 5:30am despite setting my alarm for 5:45am and got some cereal for breakfast and made some coffee. I posted on KiwiFarms a bit more before I caught the bus at 6:32am and rode it to my work. I thought I had to clock in at 7:30am and clock out at 3:30am so I stayed a bit until at 7:02am I checked my schedule and found out I was scheduled from 7:00am to 3:30pm. I clocked in at 7:03am and started on my first task of filling up the beverage cooler. I went to the back and Max asked me:
“Why are you here so early?”
I told him:
“I’m going to the Kalamazoo area after work.”
He replied:
“Oh Kalamazoo, I’ve been there before, my sister had a wedding there once because she was pregnant but was too young to legally get married in Wisconsin.”
Wow. I saw Sabrina and said hi to her and she showed me her completed drawing. I checked the schedule and it said that fAsherah would be on at 3:00pm. I did some more tasks when it was roughly time for me to go on my first break at 9:30am, I bought these chocolate Swiss rolls from Sabrina. I ended up eating 4 of the 6 rolls during my break and decided to give out the other 2. I gave my first one to Lebanon and the last one to Sabrina while Tiffany was watching. I walked back upstairs near the time that Tiffany was doing so and she said:
“Hi Gemerson!”
I had to sweep up the stairs for my next task, I asked Anne when a delivery would be and she said it was after I would be done for the day. I swept up all the stairways when I decided to go on my lunch break at 11:30am. I got some extra pasta I was going to bring home and purchased it at Tiffany’s register. She offered me one of those peanut butter and chocolate Rice Krispie things we sell and then asked me:
“What a weird combination!”
Due to the lunch and multiple types of pasta. I went upstairs and went on my lunch break. I got off and then started on coming up with tasks like vacuuming the offices. I found out that my phone was moved while I was charging it upstairs so it wouldn’t charge anymore. I had to re-adjust it. I got done with that and I took some pappardelle that was free due to there being a cut in it. Jesse said I could go early so I did the last task of facing and bought some ice cream (the machine finally works) and hopped on the bus at 12:26pm. I got back home and then finished packing up, which included some work food to bring to my family. Rose posted about her and her boyfriend attending a wedding so I commented:
>Congrats
>Wait nevermind I thought you two were getting marrieds
She replied with:
<HAHAHHA
<NOT YET
<next year
I gamed a bit on Holdfast, playing some frontlines (The World War I game mode, not the Napoleonic wars one) as a medic, constantly running around pressing E to heal every person with a health bar above their head. One person said:
“Thanks Obama Care!”
I quit after winning 1 round and then finished off all of the off brand Takis I had. I went to the convenience store to get a USB-C to Lightning cable. I brought it back home and it worked better than my super long old one. I eventually took the bus down at 4:00pm and got off. I walked over and entered to get a smoothie and some gum for dinner. I got on the train at 5:55pm after being scanned on before the train even started by a guy named D. Christen, the same conductor as before. The train was one of those Metra double deckers that were packed to the brim. I sat next to this old lady going to Glenview to see her kids. There was no wifi on the train. At 6:26pm my dad texted me:
<Fancy. What's your eta?
So I told him 7:30pm. I eventually moved to an empty seat once she got off and then went out past all the Amish people on Clinton street. I saw 2 African taxi drivers before I entered the new minivan with my luggage in tow. I said hi to my dad and showed him all the food I got. We drove to Pot Belly sandwiches and bought some sandwiches there, I got a cream soda, some voodoo chips, and a roast beef sandwich while my dad got an Italian, some sea salt and vinegar chips, with a Diet Coke fountain soda. We drove out of downtown to Michigan all the way along I-90, passing this abandoned school and a garage that I once ate KFC in with my family (it was the only restaurant nearby.) I had to listen to my dad play bands like Phish and Little Feat, they weren’t bad to be honest. We stopped at a rest stop that had a Panda Express and a Starbucks to get some ice cream and go to the bathroom. We got back on the road and texted my mom about where we were staying to no reply. We got to Nurse Aunt’s house at 11:00pm before driving over to my grandma’s old house and unpacking there. I got my grandpa’s old room (my grandma and grandpa slept in separate rooms because my grandpa’s snoring, plus he’s a Roman Catholic, they had 7 kids.) I managed to quickly write 500 words in my entry for yesterday before I completed it and heard my mom and dad talking about the latest South Park episode. I took a shower and went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Hate to Lose Your Lovin’ - Little Feat (1988)

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 26th, 2025: Michigan is a boring place. I woke up at 8:00am local time. I browsed my phone a bit before getting up because my mom had made omelets with scrambled eggs for breakfast. I didn’t have any coffee because I forgot to get some. Programmer Uncle, his wife, and Photography aunt came over and I greeted them because I hadn’t seen any of them in a long time. My mom told me that I was getting my haircut today so I had to walk down to my aunt’s house to get it cut there. I got my hair cut and here is the before:

And here is the after:

I immediately had to shower because of how much hair was cut off. I kept showering due to clipped hair coming out. I got dried off after a few minutes and went back to my grandma’s old house. I was told by my mom:
“By the way, you’re going to be Photography Aunt’s helper-“
“Bitch, you’re gonna be my bitch!”
Photography Aunt interrupted to lots of laughter. My next task for the day was to help go through a bunch of books. There was this 24 volume collection of works by Joseph Conrad, some books owned by my maternal grandfather’s paternal grandfather JP, 2 bibles owned by my grandparents, the complete works of William Shakespeare, a leather bound book on the history of Saint Joseph county. But my mom told me:
“Leave the county book for the new residents.”
So I just took 2 books. I asked fAsherah and James the Great if they wanted any of the books, fAsherah declined while James said that he'd take a look. Programmer Uncle said that my mom’s older brother would take the Joseph Conrad works. In the Bible I found on one of the pages that there were all the births recorded in the pages. I had it in mine but Beer Aunt and her twin were both born on August 5th, 1959, my mom was born September 21st, 1960, Nurse Aunt was born December 10th, 1962, Photography Aunt was born October 18th, 1964, Alcoholic Aunt was born September 10th, 1967, and Programmer Uncle was born May 15th, 1970. Then my mom went to gossip about 6ie and Rocky, I heard that Rocky had been acting super demeaning towards 6ie, but they said Alexander and Margarethe didn’t notice because as my mom put it:
“They couldn’t afford to.”
My mom noticed that Programmer Uncle was wearing a light blue swimsuit with pineapples on it and my mom mentioned that it’s associated with swingers. I went back to my aunt's house to move more stuff and found a Bible that belonged to 6ie. The writing at the beginning listed her birthday as March 7th, 1987 and her (and 7DAC)’s father’s name as Mark, it didn’t list her grandparents, and for the siblings, it listed 7DAC but not 5th Division. I've never met Mark, I found her high school diploma from 2006 there. I then walked back with my mom. When we got there, my mom told me about her paternal uncle who was a priest, she told me a story about her once lighting all the candles at those candle things they had and some old lady came up to her and said:
“That’s an awful lot of prayers you’re making! Better make a donation!”
She replied:
“My uncle is the priest here.”
He ran a Catholic bingo thing in Mackinac island but his bingo lottery was less popular than this one that was run on an Indian reservation which didn’t have to follow many laws due to being on tribal land and thus had bigger payouts. But the chief in charge was described as a mafioso who never let his tribe see the profits. My mom’s uncle tried to report him but law enforcement didn’t do anything due to it being out of their jurisdiction, so he broke some laws to bring attention to himself and his cause, thus making national news. We’ll I went back into my bedroom to charge my phone and play on this website where they took the photos from the Tea app data breach (Don’t keep it on a public bucket) where you choose which photo you like more. I continued to eat the grissini with my family as a snack. At 4:06pm I saw an Instagram story by that one girl I had danced with of hear wearing a white dress, I jokingly replied:
>Congrats on the wedding!
Throughout the day, I just didn’t feel that well mentally, I talked with the girl I recently went on a date with who said I looked like a Republican, talking about her sister’s husband. I read this tweet by HoeMath that I found interesting:
<When I was in 6th grade, my English teacher had us read a book called The War Between the Classes by Gloria D. Miklowitz.
<It's a novel about colored arm bands being used as class markers. Blue is the highest, then green, then light green, then orange.
<When we finished the book, the entire class was then forced to participate in this "social experiment." A withered old hag of a teacher explained to us that we would be given our colored bands "randomly."
<When we got them, we all immediately noticed that white students were all given orange bands and non-whites were given blue and green. Some white female students got light green, but no white males got anything but orange.
<I figured this out in about 20 seconds. I did not put my band on. The teacher would notice and then make me put it on in front of everyone. I would take it back off. This would repeat over and over.
<The non-white students, most of whom were bussed in from the inner city, then proceeded to verbally abuse the orange-banded students and give them orders and commands. If they said you had to carry their books you had to. The enforcement was just "tell teacher," who then handed out detentions.
<One such diverse equal of mine, a female who was quite a lot larger than me at the time, cornered me in recorder class (the recorder is that stupid plastic flute you play in school music class). My equal gave me humiliating commands, wit which I did not cooperate. She then shoved me into a table, bruising my ribs.
<When I told the teacher about this, the response was that I should have obeyed. The blue-banded bus rider was not punished, and I was given a warning.
<Some kids I knew skipped school to get away from this lunacy. It lasted 2 weeks. Some of them happily complied, not understanding what was happening.
<When it was over, the dried-up old witch whose idea it was revealed to us: "IT WAS NEVER RANDOM AFTER ALL! I gave out arm bands according to how privileged I thought you were so you could see what it was like for everyone else!" The less-intelligent students, most of whom were bus-riders, were SHOCKED. There was just no way they could have known this was happening.
<This all happened in 1996.
<Does that help this world we're living in make any sense to any of you out there?
No HoeMath, I put this tweet in because I wanted to meet my 1,000 word quota and also wanted to archive so it doesn’t become lost. But I grew up in a pretty White school system so I got lucky. I encountered some of the ducks that Photography Aunt had been feeding and gave them some grissini.

We snacked on the 3 cheeses I brought and loved them. Dinner was pappardelle nests with the porcini sauce and tomato cream sauce I brought. We all loved how good it tasted (except Photography Aunt had some gluten free stuff because she was on a diet of whatever) and then we went downstairs to watch the new episode of South Park (Season 27 Episode 1) on Paramount Plus. I found the liberal politics kind of cringey but loved some of the jokes, I laughed so hard when it said that Butter’s dad was proud to own an electric vehicle and then it cut to Butters and Cartman trying to kill themselves with the vehicle’s fumes. The thing that made everybody laugh at the end was the AI edited video of Trump walking in the desert taking off his clothes before lying down naked, with his penis starting to talk, everybody laughed but I thought the joke was ok. I then took a shower but realized I already took one today so I dried off, got dressed, walked past Photography Aunt watching a tv show about the nature of Indonesia. And went to bed, I had really bad gas so I went to the bathroom and spent a while on the toilet, having to open the window. But I posted my blog entry and went to bed.

Song of the Day: South Park Theme - PRIMUS (1997)

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 27th, 2025: Another day in Michigan, I woke up at 6:30am but stayed in my bed for a while, I got a message from the Guatemalan saying:
<too late
With a notification that she had unadded me, I have no reason why because our last conversation was just her randomly asking me if I was awake (it was at 1:24am Michigan time) I speculate that it might have been Asherah making a mountain out of an anthill (I forgot the exact phrase for blowing things out of proportion) of me suffering some effects of social isolation during last summer that word spread around of what she said. Here’s my best guess on the chain of transmission:
Asherah → Khadija → Khadija’s brother → The Guatemalan’s friend who was in German class with me → The Guatemalan
But my college has well over 10,000 students. Nobody in my life has truly viewed me as someone they would tolerate. But I had this conversation with The Kazakhstani:
>[screenshot of her unadding me]
>The fuck is her problem?
<Idk I don’t talk to her anymore
>You moved out?
<About
>What?
The Guatemalan’s boyfriend didn’t even open it. My mom and Photography Aunt got breakfast ready. I took some coffee from the only mug that was left and added some cream and sugar. A bit later I started drinking down this bottle of orange juice with mango in it. The glass cups were all packed away so I just used the few plastic cups we had left. I went on a walk and my mom asked to come along but I passed, I went on my walk and then back. My mom told me that I needed to repack all the books into two boxes, one for my uncle with all the Joseph Conrad books that Programmer Uncle was going to take to him, and the other one had all the books that my parents were taking, all brought out to the garage. I overpacked the one box with the transparent trash bag in it and brought it out. Photography Aunt told me that I needed to start timing myself so that she could pay me.
“What are they paying you where you work?”
She asked me.
“15 an hour.”
I replied.
“I’ll tell you what. We’ll pay you 20 an hour to help us move.”
I started my timer at 9:44am and got to moving some more boxes outside and furniture. We started with the lower floor, moving some disassembled bedframes, followed by dressers, and Photography Aunt’s clothes in her closet. Putting it in my parents' new van. We drove it over to my aunt’s house and unloaded some stuff there. I got some water from this green glass that Nurse Aunt had in a set of 8 glasses, either being wine glasses or normal rounded glasses coming in red, yellow, green, and blue. I didn’t go to church today because I felt like I would get judged by my family for doing so and “Skipping on work”. We hauled some stuff down to the basement that was thankfully air conditioned before heading back. At this time a trailer came in attached to a truck and out came a middle aged guy named Scott and another person around the same age named Robin. I thought they were the couple that was moving into the house but it was just 2 different people who weren’t married. My mom made me take my dad’s sandals because all I brought were dress shoes and flip flops. Working with Scott on bringing the dressers and mattresses out was much more pleasant than working with my mom. We loaded up the television into the trailer and had to wrap these black blankets with orange trims around some of the vintage wooden bedframes. I eventually went in to get some tuna on bread toasted topped with avocado slices and ate two of them, although they were very small. I packed some more stuff in Programmer Uncle’s truck before we took it over and unloaded it in my aunt’s house. I was wondering when we were going to go out on the lake but I finally got my wish. At this time, Alcoholic Aunt’s only child (I remember he graduated high school in 2006) came with his girlfriend and their two kids. I remember the younger one was born December 2023 and I went over to their house with my mom to clean it up for them near the end of that December and having to deal with the iPad addicted older kid, when I got back home, I got pink eye in my right eye which eventually spread to my left eye. Addison recommended to my mom that I get medication for it. But we got on the boat, my parents, Alcoholic Aunt’s son, who I will be calling Jäger, Jäger’s girlfriend, their two daughters, and Programmer Uncle. We looped around the lake once, Jäger’s girlfriend talked about how she has a Libra tattoo for her son’s zodiac sign being a Libra, I remember him being 6 last when I saw him in December 2023. She talked about how her son’s father was always protective of her when they were in high school together, protecting her from bullies. She talked about having diabetes. We moved towards the center to release the anchor and went swimming, I swam laps around the pontoon and Jäger’s younger daughter sat in a floating tube. We eventually went back in and had 2 large pizzas for dinner before Jäger’s family left. At 5:20pm, Programmer Uncle and I went outside to feed the duck and her 6 babies. I had no success getting them to eat out of my hand before shaking some seed mix near my hand to guide them to my hand, at 5:28pm I finally got the momma duck to eat out of my hand.

We finally packed my stuff in the minivan and came to my aunt’s house. I asked my mom:
“Where are we going to be sleeping tonight?”
My mom joked:
“We haven’t figured it out.”
I replied:
“Seriously, where will we sleep?”
My dad then said:
“We are homeless!”
I was starting to lose my temper:
“Can you please stop joking around?”
My parents then got angry at me for that. We got inside and I continued writing my entry for yesterday. Nurse Aunt said that if I was so bored, I could watch tv, so that’s what I did, I put on Seinfeld and we watched Season 2, episodes 8 (the one with the fake heart attack) and 9 (the one where Larry and Elaine hook up again) with my parents and Photography aunt joining us. My mom said that Nathanael Bargatze was a better comedian than Jerry Seinfeld, I wasn’t gonna fight her on that because I never heard of him before. I went downstairs to take a shower and went to sleep in 5th Division’s room.

Song of the Day: Sad Songs (Say So Much) - Elton John (1990)

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 28th, 2025: I set my alarm clock for 5:45am because I thought I would be leaving to go home at 6:00am, I got all dressed up at 5:52am and walked upstairs to make myself a bowl of wheat Chex with some Fairlife milk. I texted both my mom and my dad asking when they were ready but my dad told me that we were actually supposed to be leaving at 7:00am. I got a small cup of coffee and said bye to Nurse Aunt and my mom before getting in the extremely packed minivan and we drove off at roughly 7:00am. It was a roughly 3 hour drive from Michigan to Chicago, we first stopped at a gas station in the town we started in to get some coffee and refuel and I was sent in to grab some coffee with a 5 dollar bill, I got a 12 ounce coffee for myself with some creamer and flavor syrup. My dad just got a 16 ounce black coffee. I had over a dollar to spare so I gave it back to him. We continued with him playing Phish in the car, and got off at a gas station in Indiana on I-90 to grab a breakfast sandwich for my dad. We continued until we got past the Illinois-Indiana border and got off on S Ewing Avenue to avoid some tolls. We stopped at a hangar to talk to a coworker of my dad’s and swap cars to his company car. We finally got back to Hyde Park to stop and drop off some clothes. I asked firstly:
“Will [family friend] be here?”
My dad answered:
“Probably not, if she would be then she’s probably on a work call!”
We went in to hear NPR on the kitchen radio, she wasn’t here. We unpacked his stuff in the basement and then walked out past the giant painting of her two sons. We drove downtown and my dad told me to go get some pants and shoes at TJ Maxx, and that I should come back to his place at 12:00pm. I walked around TJ Maxx for a bit until I got some black pants and these dried kiwi slices. I bought those and next walked over to Macy's because it recently opened at 10:00am. I walked around the 1st and 2nd floors to buy some shoes and walked in the Calvin Klein store past all the fashion that I couldn’t afford on my budget. I finally went to Target to find no affordable shoes that could fit me and were men’s shoes. I walked around the streets a bit more before getting asked for a Black woman for food money, I ignored her. I got back into my dad’s building at 11:38am and went up to the top floor before the lady sitting there told me that my dad was on the second floor and let me in, guiding me to his office. I texted him at 11:41am:
>I’m back, I couldn’t find any shoes for me or Mike N Ike’s for you.
He came into his office at 12:05pm after getting out of a meeting. We then walked over to The Berghoff to get lunch, walking past the Chase building where people who didn’t work there used to be able to eat in the cafeteria downstairs. I remember getting ramen there once. We got inside The Berghoff and got some sausages, potatoes, and sauerkraut as an appetizer. For the main meal, my dad and I both got the wiener schnitzel, I had never had veal before because I was concerned about the ethics of it. One time in December 2021 I was eating in a fancy restaurant in NYC with my family and some of my mom’s friends. When I had the option of eating either pasta with clams in it or veal, I chose the clams, also one of the friends there was a CIA agent. It started raining halfway through the meal. Once we finished our meal, we split a slice of German chocolate cake, we could have gotten Black Forest cake, which is my dad’s favorite for his birthday. But they no longer had chocolate mousse on their menu. Dad accidentally knocked his glass of water on the ground but it didn’t break but our waiter cleaned it up. It cleared up and we walked back to his work car and I left to the Amtrak station, at 1:14pm, my dad texted me:
<you forgot your bag in my office
I ran back to get it and then walked over to the station. I charged my phone and bought a 12 ounce RedBull for $6. I sat behind these Amish people before getting in line for my train at 2:45pm, I got on and made it to the window car before starting to eat the sliced kiwis. This White woman sat next to me and I offered her some kiwis but she refused. The train departed at 3:15pm. I wrote in my blog all throughout the journey before getting back at 4:30pm, I didn’t have a water bottle so I had to wait until I finally got home. I unpacked a bit before working on finally making the shelf in the living room into an actual bookshelf, I took the books I got and arranged them to be standing up. I remembered I didn’t have any anti-dandruff shampoo so I walked out to the bus stop to the grocery store. I got on at 7:06pm, I saw a guy reading The Long Walk by Stephen King. I got off and bought some shaving razors, a gallon of milk, and frozen edamame (I couldn’t find any fresh vegetables) and had my card declined so I added $100 to it and it worked. I took the bus home and played more Skyrim and Holdfast. I took a shower with the new shampoo. I posted my blog entry. And thus to bed.

Song of the Day: Ocelot - Phish (2009)

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 29th, 2025: I woke up at 6:00am for my volunteering that I had to do today. I got some more fruity pebbles for breakfast and brewed myself a cup of coffee. I got packed quickly for work, putting my chargers and laptop in my backpack. I remembered that I had a bunch of these cards from Saint Paul Street Evangelization which had on the top Isaiah 53:5:
☛5 But he was pierced for our sins, crushed for our iniquity. He bore the punishment that makes us whole, by his worlds we are healed.
I got a whole stack and thought of putting them in all the Qurans we had in the library. I walked out to the bus stop all dressed up, but at this point I forgot to grab my backpack and only realized my error when I got on the bus. I didn’t despair because most of what I would need was in the office instead of in my backpack. The can collector was on the bus today but he was wearing an Ozaukee county fair hat instead of the usual black and white one. I got in through the door that’s usually left open and set up my items. I turned on the lights except for the ones that run across the window. Portia let me into Seth M’s wing, I grabbed my computer. I logged on to start the day and brewed some coffee for everybody. I got a cup of coffee in the big mug and looked for what I could do for most of the day. I just walked around the place a few times in order to find things to do. I saw Zach A wearing a red velvet suit over a red striped button-up. I talked to the website guy when he was talking to Kiana about a form that wasn’t working on WordPress. I changed one of the fields and it finally worked. Elon seemed kind of hostile towards me today for no real reason. A bit later I found out we got a new employee so I got the card printer and made it for him. I didn’t have much to do and I wasn’t feeling so well so I went into the stairs that almost nobody uses and prayed a decade of the rosary in my head, yes in my head. I went back up and while I was walking back to my desk past Tia when I saw Staples seemingly sleeping at her desk. I asked her:
“Are you sleeping on the job or am I just misinterpreting things?”
She replied:
“Oh no, I’m just having issues dealing with this one troublesome client, it’s super stressing.”
“It looked like to me you just fell asleep in your swiveling chair.”
She then hit me with:
“So do you have any issues to come over here for?”
I knew I got on her nerves in such a short time so I left. I texted my mom a bit about the camping trip and she said she still wanted me to go. I posted about the Lac du Flambeau retreat in the GroupMe groupchat at 10:52am, at 10:54am the priest texted me:
<Hey Gemerson - we only invited certain students to retreat. I can let you know. There are 19 students signed up
I replied with:
>Thank you!
And then deleted it. I was listening to classical music with these headphones I found in the drawer while waiting for it to be 12:00pm so I could leave for lunch. I went over to the pizza place around that time and ordered a loaded potato slice of pizza with some snowberry Peace Tea. I sat in the corner near these college people. I eventually went back inside and noticed the Daeguite wasn’t there at all. I walked around more and saw Ahwahn and all the Ukrainians. I didn’t have anything from Zach A so I talked to the woman that wanted me to make a spreadsheet for her. She told me that the rest of her day would be busy so we should do it at 11:00am on Monday. I went over to Staples again to ask her:
“Is that all the cards I need to print out for the others?”
She told me they haven’t and that some of the others that have worked with the company for a long time saw no need for it, she apologized for the inconvenience but I told her:
“Don’t be sorry, it’s not your fault that they haven’t turned something in.”
I went back to Seth M to see about leaving early. He told me that we weren’t going to be going with Microsoft Dynamics and that he was interested in getting me on the staff part time to receive an actual pay. I said I would think about it and brought my stuff back to his office and then filled out the clock out forum early. I walked over to the bus stop and took it home. I saw Angela in one of the college posts on their Instagram forum and holy shit she had shorter hair than before. I got home and walked over to the house of the woman who wanted me to see her cats. I texted her:
>Outside
At 2:36pm and she let me in, I saw her and her roommate’s 3 cats, Nico, Toji, and I forgot the name of the 3rd one, but Toji was a common tabby kitten who was super shy. I cleaned up their sink due to the fruit flies coming out of the sink, I met her gay roommate and he remembered me and was pretty chill. I got into her room and cleaned it up a bit before we got to cuddling on her bed while watching Kaiju No 8. We got through 4 episodes and I thought them to be kind of generic before we left due to her and her roommate’s movie they were going to see at 5:00pm. I walked back home and cooked up some ramen while I played some more Holdfast and installed Counter Strike to try it out for the first time on a zombies map. I took a shower with the dandruff shampoo and then went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Nocturne in B flat minor, Op. 9 no. 1 - Frédéric Chopin (1832)

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

@molochfan43 Obsessed brimstone

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

July 30th, 2025: A free day today, I woke up at 7:00am to get some cereal with milk for my breakfast. I had some coffee to go with it and I got on my desktop computer to play more Holdfast and Counter Strike classic. In CS, I got the hang of things quickly but then this guy in voice chat got so ass mad at me because of some rule I hardly broke, in his whining voice I had to hear this shit:
“Hey Obama Care, please change your name, politics aren’t allowed.”
I didn’t have Obama in my profile picture at all nor made any further references to politics. I just quit that game. I switched over to Holdfast and had a far better time on that, I completed a few rounds before I got off and packed my large suitcase full of my dirty laundry and brought it over to the laundromat. It started to rain at this point while I was walking but I tolerated it due to it being no more than a drizzle; however, by the time I got to the laundromat. My suitcase was soaked. I unloaded it into this 30 pound washer near the front and felt around in the rubber thing for stuff and found a quarter and a penny in it. I started it while I saw 2 women sitting and reading their books, I remember that the little library they had included Dreamcatcher by Stephen King. I then walked back home using only the container of Tide detergent as a shitty umbrella. I got home to see a blue couch outsite and the door propped open because the girls in the apartment above were moving out, the moment I went in it was dark and this girl told me:
“Be careful, we accidentally hit the light and it broke!”
I walked carefully and then saw that the newel at the bottom took some damage and was also busted up with 2 nails sticking out. I put the detergent back and then walked back with a grey hoodie and wearing a black shirt with grey shorts and brown slipons (no socks) and moved it to the dryer for 20 minutes. I wrote more in my blog before my stuff was done and I took it out. I went back home and then gamed some more before cooking some ramen for lunch. I walked to the bank to deposit my old security deposit at 10:22am and then to Goodwill to buy a black button-up and a small fake crocodile leather belt. I got dressed for the meeting with Harmony C and left at 1:00pm and got off the bus at 1:15pm. I went into the interview being let in by Seth M, Harmony C and I went over my report and was concerned about how I stated I didn’t feel welcome here and I told her about Staples without naming her and she said:
“It’s not Zach A is it?”
I told her no and she gave me some papers to make into a report that I could use. I told her about the job offer from Zach A. I then left after 30 minutes and saw Kiana on the way back to the bus stop and then went back home. I played more Holdfast until I went to the bus stop for Eucharistic adoration. This Black man came up to me and asked:
“Hey I messed up in life, I’m not a criminal or anything but I am diabetic and I need some food, just a sandwich or anything.”
I replied:
“Well there’s this food donation thing, I mean a food pantry up the…”
“Fuck you man, if you didn’t want me here you could have just told me to leave.”
I stopped talking to him and got on the bus at 5:16pm. I walked to the place and was let in by Father Malachi, I started reading this super old book about the Catholic catechism from 1886. The pages were sadly falling apart but it had amazing woodcut prints. Dinner was Cousin’s Subs sandwiches with chips and cookies. The South African was there along with Cliffe and Stuart. I saw this experiment of a metal door handle sitting in a glass of Coca-Cola. We talked about Catholicism in Wisconsin and I said:
“What about Blessed Solanus Casey?”
Turns out it was his feast day and I forgot. I found out from Cliffe that Jeremiah had moved to Kansas for something. Someone was playing this Portuguese song. I overheard the South African talking about his teaching job, he’s going to be teaching history and Latin. I told the South Africanabout my art history class, he thought all the professors were good. We went over to the chapel at 6:45pm and I got in line for confession, I wrote a sin list and then went into confession, the priest narrowed in on me missing mass this Sunday so I got told to pray the Glory Be prayer for my penance, I felt that was too light and prayed the entire rosary. I saw Peach, Quinci, Sideburns’ cousin and her boyfriend in front of me. Peach was on her phone and I wanted to text her to get off but I didn’t. We had mass as normal and the homily was about Solanus Casey, he was born in Oak Grove, Wisconsin on November 25th, 1870 and was rejected from Saint Francis de Sales Seminary and was only ordained as a simplex priest. He ended up giving advice to over 40 people per day. I went up to receive the Eucharist and saw Marie, Rose, her boyfriend, the Keralan, Naomi, and Elijah’s mother in line. We went out to the social and I talked with this guy who was a friend of Quinn and he heard about me. I talked with Quinci and Peach and then left near 9:00am but went back. I complained to a friend about my parents having inconvenient plans like me skipping a street festival and a dance just to see a few family members. I eventually went home with Peach because her dad drove her there and could drive me back, he was pretty old. Peach told me she went to college in Ottawa and to grad school at my college. I got dropped off and got in to see the lightbulb mess gone. I had this conversation with Patrick Sean Tomlinson finished at 9:23pm and noticed I got blocked by him:
<This is why Trump, the GOP, and their donors hate wind and solar.
<It creates abundance for all instead of scarcity that enriches only the few.
<Now go a step further with this. Imagine you have the energy storage infrastructure (battery, gravity, whatever) in place to capture this excess. You could get PAID to store electricity for later use.
<The fossil fuel industry will do everything ot can to kill renewables.
>Now waddle a step further with this. Imagine you have the food storage infrastructure (silo, fridge, whatever) in place to capture this meat. You could get PAID to grind diversity children for later use.
>The Milwaukee Police Department will do everything it can to kill Fatrick.
<You're like this because no one ever loved you.
<And no one ever will.
I laughed so hard at this that I just couldn’t contain my laughter. I took a shower and then went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Há Pressa no Ar - Pedro Ferreira, Fr. João Paulo Vaz (2023)

 

[worldatwar]

sacrifice your time to read my blog

 

[GemersonLakeAndPalmer]

sacrifice your time to read my blog

Stole my line!