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September 2nd, 2026: Awoken at 6:30am to something about schools being canceled due to heat and another thing to do with steam. I turned my alarm off and then got breakfast. I got on the internet to browse it a bit and upload more soyjaks mostly, more of the Thai provinces, I had noticed that a lot of the province flags would often use famous buildings from each province, it would be like if the flag of Utah included the Salt Lake Utah Temple, the flag of Idaho included the Cataldo Mission of the Sacred Heart, the flag of Tennessee included Graceland, or the flag of Wisconsin included the Wisconsin State Capitol, oh wait, that’s on the flag of Madison, Wisconsin. I packed up a bit to head to the library again for an interview I wanted, I got packed with most of my stuff in my backpack before walking all the way to the busy building. I bought some popcorn chicken for lunch and ate it with barbeque sauce. I spotted Khadija walking while I was sitting down to eat, which made me paranoid of being spotted by someone who knows me and would think I’m weird and creepy for going on campus as someone who’s already graduated, I dressed the part as a student, kinda but the only person to see me was Seraphim, he said hi to me and he told me he was going to the gym and he was glad to see me. I went into the library to stay at my usual spot for most of the time, I signed up for Aella’s new website called Study of us where you submit your picture to be rated and then rate the pictures of others. I got this picture from Cara sent to me:
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I replied back and started the conversation:

>May I kidnap him?
<No
<He’s my baby

>This is kinda like 9/11
>May I kidnap your other cat?

<BHAHAH
<No
<They’re all mine

>Please.
>I have no cats…

<Go get one
<NOT mine

>May I at least see the cat.
Sadly no response. I then walked back home and got a Monster energy drink. On the way there was this lone Black guy doing construction work on a house nearby and he was playing rap music from speakers. I got home and then at 3:30pm, I was called for the job interview. It turns out that I couldn’t do it because it needed me to drive a car so she told me to apply later when I get one. I didn’t go to Eucharistic adoration today after eating 4 eggs in scrambled eggs style because I felt sick a good amount and almost like throwing up. I spent a lot of time on the computer and Waleran got back from architecture classes. I went to shower and then I started day 29 of my 54 day rosary novena at 10:48pm and completed it at 11:08pm while I washed some of the many dishes that were present before heading to bed.

Song of the Day: DONNY DARKO - Don Toliver, Lil Uzi Vert (2024)
that's a cute cat
 
September 6th, 2026: Woke up early and almost had cereal for breakfast but my mom told me to wait for pancakes, I did, and I also had this picture of my nice cat that I uploaded to Instagram calling her “cherubic” because of how beautiful she was

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I had my 2 pancakes from my mom before getting dressed in this new shirt I didn’t realize I had before, when I put it on it felt like polyester so I checked the tag to see it’s actually 70% cotton, 26% nylon, and 4% spandex, I wore it regardless and asked my mom to take her red car to church. I drove off at 8:45am and got there quite earlier than others for the building that was wider than it was long (thanks for nothing Joseph Bernardin) and prayed silently. There were lots of old people here and the family of 5 who sat in front of me might have been my old babysitter who now owns a cow farm. I didn’t go up for the Eucharist because I was in a state of moral sin and even if I did, there was a poorly dressed eucharistic minister. I left shortly after praying post-mass and then drove home to be there a bit. My sister was up and I got some more coffee before she left to visit some friends. I wrote more and in small bits because I was dreading having to write what needed to be written. I was talking with MazelTV, a guy from Moscow, Russia who got famous on the Booru forum for getting drafted I asked him and he told me to not tell anybody so I got on a call with him to find out he told me his family is Jewish so he escaped from the clutches of Alexey Alexandrovich Palilov and now lives in Israel, he also got a job that pays enough to afford an apartment. Later on I found out that some other user named Beefsoup released info about him escaping to Tel Aviv and an apparent facedox, lol. I later was called outside by my mom and dad to start with sifting through apples on the ground under the apple trees. Apples which were still somewhat good we collected; apples which were too rotten to make into cider were thrown towards the tree. I threw every bad apple I could at the tree and managed to make a few explode from the impact, I ate 2 apples from the tree and my dad said he got stung by a wasp, we drove the apples to the garage to store them and I went back upstairs to upload posts to the booru. We had some vegetables from the garden nearby dropped off for us to eat and I snacked on a few green beans while my mom made pickles with pickling cucumbers. My mom used apple cider vinegar for the pickling so it smelled awful in the kitchen and I stayed upstairs. Later on, my parents said they were going over to Addison and Aaron’s house for their sauna, I passed but they told me that my sister and I would have to start dinner while checking the apple crisp. My sister brought home 2 packages of bratwurst, red cabbage, 10 ears of corn with 8 I had to shuck, and a fourth item that I forgot. We cooked them and my parents got back to help cook later, with my mom warning my sister that the brats on the grill would catch fire but they didn’t. We finally ate dinner which was coleslaw, sausages, corn on the cob, and the 4th item which my dad described as a classic Palmer family dinner, I had the apple dessert they cooked up with ice cream from downstairs while my mom and sister watched this documentary about an Irish soccer player in the 1970s and I went upstairs. I started day 33 of my 54 day rosary novena at 10:06pm and fell asleep while praying the rosary.

Song of the Day: Imitation of Life - R.E.M. (2001)
 
September 7th, 2026: Almost my birthday today. I woke up early and had cereal for breakfast along with some coffee but my mom told me that I needed to wait for them to cook waffles for breakfast, I later joined my sister and my parents in eating waffles as I went back upstairs to upload more soyjaks, I had this hour of training for my job due by September 10th but I kept delaying it as there was little incentive for me to actually do it. I got out and went down to snack on some more of the vegetables as I saw my dad’s new tent set up with a canopy over the area outside the tent and over the minivan a little bit, I was inside for a while and I checked what outfits I had to wear, I eventually decided on this striped yellow and blue one that was in even proportions. I tried finding the nice cat to no luck. I talked with my mom a bit more and I told her I’d be leaving at 6:30pm for the talk, which she got mad at because she thought I would be going at 6:30am for the talk but I said it starts at 7:30pm. She was working on cooking this greek dinner for us to have, I got a little curious and and messaged Abscond at 1:24pm asking:
>Wait who was the guy your sister locked up that’s out now? (You don’t have to answer)
I was off my phone a bit and she later answered at 2:17pm with:
<How did you learn this?
I was freaked out, I knew I fucked up badly and just ruined any “relationship” I had with her, I was paranoid and thought of not going to the event, I unadded her on Instagram (even though she never followed me back in the first place) and I wrote to her at 3:22pm explaining:
>You told me this.
>At the firearms training.

I didn’t get a response for a while and I was pissed at the thought of her ruining my social life and spreading lies about me being creepy because I remembered something I told her. On Instagram a short time afterwards, I found out Macie posted a meme taking pride in her zoloft usage, disgusting. I was tasked with delivering some leftover food to Addison’s chickens and drove it over. Addison told me she’s glad to see me and that these chickens had a lot of feathers plucked out due to “men” wow even the dummyed real womantok misandry hasn’t escaped the middle aged women. Addison asked if my mom would like her to bring over some eggs later when they come for dinner, I said yes. I spotted Aaron while driving home and then waited a bit until I checked my phone again to see Abscond texted me back at 4:37pm with:
<Ah yes. Have you submitted your paperwork?
I replied:
>No… I need to change my address.
>😓🙇‍♂️
Whoops. I made sure to wish Sophia a happy 22nd birthday. My mom put the lamb meat mix in the oven for when Aaron and Addison would come over when they did at 5:57pm, Addison gave me her gift of an East Asian cuisine cooking book, my mom finished off the food and I said hi to them before leaving at 6:20pm, here’s the food:
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I drove for 30 minutes to the gas station while playing music in the car, I paid for $32 for a ¼ full tank to fill up but I had issues with paying for it and had to go inside where I lost my debit card I think. I drove the rest of the way and got flashed twice for going to slow (73 mph and 80 mph) in the left lane. I made it to the parking lot by 7:44pm and parked next to Abscond in her car. I asked her why she was sitting in there and I thought I’d look like a stalker child harassing a woman in her car but she told me the place for the talk looked empty and she didn’t go in for mass because she forgot her veil. I then went near and saw people listening to the talk so I motioned Abscond to come in but she didn’t listen. Here’s what I recorded of Adam II’s talk:
“...It still has, this door still has a larger presence. Now in terms of the seven sorrows, I actually haven't gotten to that part yet, but we have, I know. But they are the prophecy of Simeon, the flight into Egypt, the loss of Jesus for three days in the temple, meeting Jesus on the way to Calvary, Christ's crucifixion and death, our Lord taking down from the cross, and our Lord being laid in the tomb. So it's very, in some ways the devotion is very simple, but it's all about meditating on that. And there are many good works for doing that. Once again, McGorry is fantastic for that. Pius VII wrote a number of articles on it, or he wrote a litany, and I also think maybe he blessed a number of prayers with it as well. So there's very many devotions for it. In terms of practicing it, so we did the why, we did a what, we've done a how now, we're getting to the end, is first and foremost the devotion is all about prayer, fast, almsgiving. Or in some ways it's almost the devotions are in some ways are very superfluous, because they're always told like the same thing, right? For any of the Marian devotions it's pray the rosary, build a shrine, for any of the times we fast, it's always the same thing. There's nothing really that new about it, it's always the same thing. But at Kibbutz, she says you need to make penance for sinners, because there's no one to do it for them. She talks about doing acts of charity, giving to the poor, because it makes you beautiful in front of God. So once again, it's always these things we know to do, but it's reminders from heaven. So in terms, so once again, prayer, fast, and almsgiving is the basics, right? As I kind of joked about, the other says often build a shrine, but that also implies that we should be visiting those shrines for our lady. There is one in fact in Chicago that we can go visit. There is a Servite-like forest, it's in these old, it's part of the old Servite convent. It's actually on the north side of Milwaukee. Also the seven Hail Marys a day, I think [person], as he went to the site, he actually mentioned he might be praying that each day. But also the seven sorrows rosary. Now, in a certain way, the Dominican rosary is kind of the foundation. We're usually asked to pray that every day, but I believe they asked if we could do this devotion twice a week, Tuesdays and Fridays. And of course the other option is to wear the Servite scapular as well. There's many scapulars, green scapular, brown scapular, also black. But the black scapular, or the Servite, I believe it's black, but the Servite scapular is another devotion as well. Now, the next steps are in terms of learning, more about kind of doing the devotion. I think first would be a good step is to learn about it once again. There's the glorious Mary book. You can learn about more, it's like the maidie of Our Lady and her sacrifice for reparation. And Gary Luke describes the mother of Savior in our interior life. Also the one that I gave to us. I'm gonna borrow this one more time. The Sorrowful One is a very short book. You can probably read it in just a few days. But very beautiful, many stories about it. Of Our Lady and her devotion. Also ways to practice it. I also, Father Ironside has a series of talks on his website, [censored]. I can also share those if you want. It was funny, after I was going through preparing the speech and doing final touches, you realize how much you literally stole from someone's documents. And I was like, hmm. So I'll just share that, Father Ironside’s worth, to you directly. And also in terms of the practicing, kind of like, all right, so you were like, in terms of how should I practice this devotion? So on one hand, you talked about how it's reparation. So it's not like an optional devotion kind of joke. You don't necessarily have to have a devotion to St. Catherine of Alexandria, right? We consider that kind of optional. But reparation is not one of those optional things, right? That's something we should be doing, and should be doing to Our Lady. So liturgical life helps us do that, right? So we have this month, just like in July, we might have devotion to the Precious Blood, or the month of March, St. Joseph. Now we have, the Church calls us to practice devotion to the Seventh Sabbath of Samaria. Whether it's to the Feast on the 15th, or it's the five first Saturdays, there's different ways that the Church already has us for integrated reparation. And once again, liturgical year is so powerful. If anybody's ever familiar, if someone with Dom Prosper Guéranger Liturgical Year, where he went through each day, each season, going through the Church's life, that book was read by St. Therese Liseux’s family every night. You think of all these saints from this family, they read the liturgical year every night at like, I think it was every night at dinner. Do you know what time it was, the night at dinner? Okay, he doesn't know. We didn't know what time it was. Oh, yes, I'm sorry. Oh no, I was gonna give you the rest of my drink. Oh, but you can have mine. Wine, okay. But so once again, integrating it, that part's the devotion that way. But also, the other, so once again, doing those parts, we're trying to integrate liturgical life, but also St. Francis de Sales talks about how we should find some devotion that we really like and make it a part of our lives. Kind of like we, or at least compares it to like, you know, making a flower beautiful. We try and integrate it. And if that's, this is a devotion you could do that, I highly recommend it..."

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September 7th, 2026 (Continued): "...I really enjoy doing the seven Hail Marys before bed at night trying to do this on Tuesdays and Fridays. I'm not as good at that But I do think it is, in terms of if you're looking for one, you're like, I would like to dedicate some of my life to it. I do think it's very beautiful. Once again, it's very many promises. And as you wrap up, I think one of the things you ask yourselves, is this devotion just a cautionary tale? Are we, you know, we think of the people of Cabello? Is this just a case where we're almost doomed to failure, that this isn't going to work out? But I think the answer to that is it really is up to us and our own devotion. Our Lord places us in our hands to make reparation, just as Our Lady made reparation for us. And I'm gonna end the talk actually with speculation. As I said, almost everything I did, I stole very liberally. But I think the end is actually the only thing. I think there's two very interesting things. One is that the Feast of the Assumption is very inextricably linked to the Feast of Our Seven Sorrows. And I think that's scriptural. So why is that? So first of all, why is it linked? Well, first of all, the famous warning at Cabello was August 15th. The devotion to the Servite Father is August 15th. The most famous founder of the Servite, or the leader of the Servites who made a giant, St. Philip of Benisi, who almost became Pope, also August 15th. There's this link between those two. And in scripture, that actually happens as well. So in the Book of the Apocalypse, also called Revelation, when it gets to the proof for Our Lady being in heaven, it's because the Ark of the Covenant is in heaven. I think you read about that in Scott Hines' book, Hail, Holy Queen. But you see, Our Lady is in heaven, or I should say, the Ark of the Covenant is in heaven. On one chapter, once again, it's just a chapter. These are made later. It's not actually how it goes in the scriptures. But the Ark of the Covenant is in heaven. The next, basically the very next thing that happens without any break is Our Lady. So that Ark is at the Ark of the Covenant, being in heaven, and Our Lady there, that is the scriptural proof that Our Lady had been assumed into heaven. So when people talk about scripture defining the assumption, they reference that. But the very next thing that happens is that Our Lady suffers. And it's a very interesting verbiage, because the verbiage for her suffering, when you read in the original, it actually refers to giving birth, but it is used metaphorically for suffering. Where does that occur? That occurs, that verbiage also occurs of our Lord talking about his own passion. He describes it as giving birth. So the assumption, and Our Lady suffers, are inextricably linked, even in scripture, but also even in the apparitions. That's one thing. So that's one novel thing I found while researching. But the other thing, it has to do with the double feast. Once again, that's unique in all church history. Maybe it happened in the past, but it's something which doesn't actually have a place now. And I'm not sure if anybody's familiar with it, but the new feast day that, basically the new feast day that occurred was for the third Sunday Lent, though now, September 15th. But when it reemerged on the scene, it became on that day, in response to the defeat of Napoleon. So we always romanticize bomb revolutions, particularly on this continent. But when we think about past revolutions, including the French Revolution, it was described as a revolution against God. Don't worry, Canon agrees, I think. It was a terrible revolution, once again, against God. It culminated in first one pope being imprisoned by Napoleon, then a second pope being imprisoned by Napoleon, including Pius VII. However, Napoleon's ambitions actually led him to fall. He invaded Russia, but he was defeated at the Battle of Leipzig, which in Polish is pronounced Leschen, right? So it was at Leschen where he was defeated. And so once again, he's going into Russia, and all of a sudden everything's falling apart, and it's called the Battle of Nations. It's the largest, basically this is the largest invasion in all of human history. Napoleon's raging to basically become the world conqueror. And at this battle, he is defeated, and at this point, it's a backward fall. And what also happens there? Our lady appears to a Polish soldier as the mother of sorrows. So she appears to him as that, to this Polish man who's just like, I just want to die in my own homeland. And once again, another apparition occurs there, and it becomes the seventh largest shrine in all of Europe, the largest in Poland. Following the fall of Napoleon, it's four years, because the Pope's in prison, of liturgical decrees, there's nothing. The very first one established is the second feast of seven sorrows of Mary. And that's not the only thing which occurred. It was also, if you remember the devotion, how it's also about forgiving your enemies, bringing people together. And now, unlike what happened with those warring groups in Cabello, too many in Europe also did forgive. Pius VII, even though all these bad things had happened, he forgave Napoleon. He actually urged clemency for him from the British, and he even got him a chaplain. And then Napoleon, once again, this man who, he did have some mixed aspects of his life, his faith, but once again, went on to imprison two popes. But he actually passed away as a loyal son of the church, and at the end of his death, he said his greatest moment wasn't one of his military victories, his political victories, where his reorganizations of Europe, it was actually, he said, his first communion. And only in heaven we'll see the miracles of Our Lady, that she has worked through her seven sorrows. And so, as we end, we just pray that she'll continue working those miracles in our own hearts, the way she had for Europe, as she was almost engulfed in a very, very bad storm. So I thought we could just go ahead, pray with a quick Hail Mary in honor of her sorrows, and then a blessing from heaven.” - Adam II
I sat down in Bonaventure’s spot as he moved and saw others there like Liseuxa, Salignac, Yor, Loid, Kong, the older French priest, the Omahan. Abscond messaged me that she had to be on the phone for a call. As we announced more stuff like planning and Adam II retiring to pass it on to another person as Adam II was engaged. We slowly moved outside for the social and I had a strawberry plus apple cider. I spotted Salignac talking with Yor and a bit later Abscond talking with Salignac. Outside I didn’t have much luck socializing at first but Liseuxa came over to talk to me, first about getting me to join these italian dancers performing at an event and then me revealing I got laid off at my old company and she told me that she was mad about inconsistent scheduling with emails from Staples and how I could have coded something better. I went over to talk with Kong and he was bidding on a button-up online on Shopgoodwill that went up to $80 before Kong lost the bid, I told Kong:
“Why not go in person to a Goodwill for much cheaper stuff.”
He said they were all bad, even the one good one that people praised in the city. We gathered around for a notice that the younger French priest would be reassigned to a parish in Massachusetts as we burned the letter in weak protest. As I talked, the priest went around suggesting that we eat or drink leftover stuff like slices of pizza, champagne, cookies that were good for digestive health. I talked with Abscond and Yor as I mentioned that my birthday was coming up and they ended up singing this traditional Polish happy birthday song and I was happy that I felt considered, Bonaventure quoted to me a Blink-182 song lyric about my newfound age. The priest talked about giving me a birthday blessing but that fell through. Salignac left to head home and I made a joke about her abandoning us that I think she didn’t get. Some lady joked about the description plaques that Donald Trump wrote for the previous presidents with Joe Biden’s portrait being of an autopen. I said that Joe Biden was being controlled by his “advisors” to let leftist ideas run unchecked and everybody agreed with me.

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September 7th, 2026 (Continued): I left at 9:40pm and drove all the way home listening to music, when I got back, I checked Soyjak.Forum to find a Claude.ai summary of me and my posting, here’s the full thing and my thoughts on it.
<Descriptors of the Person
<Age: 22 (states his birthday directly — September 8th — and confirms the age both times it comes up in the timeline).

All correct here.
<Life Stage: College student, likely upperclassman, who also works a part-time retail-type job (name tag, stocking beverage coolers) and lives off-campus with a roommate. Regularly attends individual therapy on a set schedule.
Outdated, both on the college student part and the therapy that I no longer attend.
<Communication Style / Signature Behavior: An extraordinarily compulsive daily journaler — transcribes his entire day, nearly every day, into a running blog that had already passed 150,000 words within about a year, with wake-up times, breakfast contents, coffee creamer choices, and minute social interactions all logged. He treats this record almost like a public performance/relationship — quizzing readers on details from his own diary, tracking who's "obsessed" enough to read it, seeking validation through the sheer volume and consistency of the documentation. This level of granular self-tracking, combined with described OCD-adjacent therapy attendance, suggests a personality sreal womangly oriented toward routine, control, and external validation of his own narrative.
Rude, I think I might have done like 200,000 words written in a year, I have no idea where the OCD-adjacent therapy attendance is coming from.
<Religious Life: The most sincerely and consistently devout of the four profiles by far. Genuinely practicing Catholic — regular Mass attendance (including specific feast days like the Assumption), involvement with a campus Catholic Center (men's breakfast groups, retreats), a religious youth-camping background (references to Philmont, a well-known Catholic/Scouting high-adventure program), and a daily "Biblejak" ritual where he posts scripture. Elsewhere he transcribed the entire Book of Genesis chapter by chapter. His faith isn't ironic internet posturing — it's a structuring part of his actual daily routine.
Philmont is just a Scouting high-adventure program, I didn’t remember anything explicitly Catholic about it.
<Political/Religious Ideology: Traditionalist and combative about it — defends the Crusades as justified, frames modern Turkey as a historical enemy of the Church ("the modern day Amalek"), and expresses hardline anti-Islam sentiment through explicitly religious rather than purely nationalist framing. This is distinct from the other three accounts' politics, which were mostly meme-driven or contradictory — his is grounded in a coherent (if combative) theological worldview.
I have some national issues with Islam besides religious ones.
<Social/Romantic Life: Describes real difficulty with dating and social confidence — asked a few women out and was turned down, avoided wishing a friend happy birthday out of fear it would hurt his "social life," and elsewhere admits to ignoring people in person during a group retreat. Mentions having had sex twice and regretting it, consistent with his religious values, and participates in a NoFap effort (repeated "I will not jerk off" commitment posts) suggesting an active, ongoing struggle to align his behavior with his stated values — a real point of internal tension rather than a settled state.
I don’t remember the “I will not jerk off” thing but it’s funny.
<Family Dynamics: Close and warm relationship with parents — calls his mom on Mother's Day, texts his parents casually, gets picked up from trips by his mom and grandfather, has a cat back home he clearly loves. Also makes a self-deprecating joke that his mother having him in her 40s explains his own autism, suggesting he identifies as autistic (self-disclosed, not diagnosed by me).
A bit of an overestimate.
<Daily Life/Routine: Extremely habitual — the same cereal-and-coffee breakfast routine, the same bus commute, the same convenience store runs, recur almost identically day after day. Enjoys retro/tabletop-adjacent gaming (Holdfast, modded Terraria, Plants vs. Zombies), pixel-art community sites, and casual video games as downtime.
Correct.
<Self-Perception: Alternates between mundane contentment and low-grade frustration/loneliness ("another shitty day," feeling his "social life would plummet further"). Doesn't display the same wistful "life went wrong" narrative as the first profile, but there's a quieter undercurrent of social awkwardness and self-consciousness running through the entries.
I’ve been running this blog for over 2 years not, there’s going to be multiple “shitty days”
<Community Behavior — Darker Threads: Despite his sincere faith, he's still embedded in the same abrasive subculture as the other posters — participates in threads dedicated to identifying/mocking other users ("dox map," "beatdown," tier-list threads ranking members), uses ethnic and religious slurs in exchanges (particularly targeting Turkish/Muslim users), and describes deliberately erasing LGBT pride-flag pixel art on a shared canvas as a small act of culture-war activism. This coexistence of devout personal faith with casual participation in the forum's harassment culture is one of the more striking tensions in this account compared to the others.
Imagine my shock that Claude.ai got DEI’d into browbeating me with moralcacaotry and pretending I’m dark and scary for making a map of KiwiFarms doxes I didn’t find, posting in a thread with the word “beatdown”, ranking other users, and erasing cacaot vandalism.
<Substance Use: No indications of drug or heavy alcohol use in this history — his vices, as he frames them, are more around pornography/masturbation (which he's actively trying to quit) than substances.
Never goon. I started day 34 of my 54 day rosary novena at 10:47pm and ended it at 11:09pm before heading to sleep.

Song of the Day: Soldier - Eminem (2002)
 
September 8th, 2026: My 23rd birthday today, I woke up and was told by my mom that I could have Irish apple cake for breakfast while she worked remotely up in the office today, I got my dad coffee and he wished me a happy birthday. I spent most of my day just chilling upstairs and writing in my blog. I uploaded 2 sets of Thai provinces to the Booru first before logging off because my sister said she needed the computer room setup for her work from home day. I wrote more in short breaks and occasionally went outside to try and find the nice cat but no luck. I got happy birthday wishes from my dad’s sister, James the Greater, my godmother, grandma Jane, Xebec, Vannie, Cara, Uzi, and a few others on Snapchat. I had to help a bit outside with setting up this rack for the minivan which wouldn’t assemble due to an issue with the metal connectors being slightly bent. My dad dismissed me to head back inside while I went back to the usual. My sister was baking chocolate cake while I was outside sipping on ginger ale before she invited me in to lick the batter out of the bowl, I licked it clean then put it in the dishwasher. I found the nice cat and was told to teach it how to use the new cat door with their new collars, both the nice cat and mean cat resisted and wouldn’t go through the cat doors. My mom did this technique to clean out the jars of spaghetti sauce where she poured a bit of red wine into one, sloshed it around, and poured it in the second one before dumping it in the sauce. I went down as I saw that Helga had driven here to give me my birthday gifts, which were mostly food with some other stuff. She went out to the porch to talk with my sister and my dad. At 5:54pm, my sister said that she’s not having kids, thanks for nothing for putting the burden on the autistic sibling, bonus points for using the “too expensive” excuse that 6ie uses. Dinner was fettuccine with the sauce we were cooking and garlic bread. We all enjoyed it but I think I should have requested shrimp scampi. My mom mentioned how Italian women would wait to eat dinner after the men had eaten but the Irish didn’t do that and also the Italians having liquor after dinner, I mentioned limoncello’s use as a digestive aid. Helga mentioned working as a tour guide at this famous building so much that the guy who was mayor in the city 3 separate times (ending his last term in 2019) was confused why she didn’t retire. After dinner I got out the small white plates with tiny studs around the edge for the cake. My sister took a picture of me and posted it on Instagram and then I reposted it to my story. I had more people send me happy birthday wishes including Hannah:
<Happy Birthday! 🎉
>Thank you Hannah! Hope you enjoyed the talk.
>Also there's this talk I'm advertising:
>[picture of flyer]

<Thanks Gemerson! I won’t be attending because I get out of choir at 6:50 and will have a different event or dinner that I’m planning on attending already. Is there a way I could watch the talk?
>I can record it and send it to you.
<That would be great!
Onyx II, a TradCath woman from Italy, and another woman from college all wished me a happy birthday over Instagram. Most of my gifts were the camping stuff that I used to use because I generically said it when I couldn’t think of any other birthday gifts. My dad and I planned a camping trip to the Door County peninsula from October 9th to October 11th. As my sister and I helped Helga slowly walk to her car, I spotted the nice cat and told my sister to help her for the last few feet, when I got back to Helga’s car, I showed her the nice cat for her to pet I went up to the computer to upload 30 flagspam soyjaks before going to the shower. I uploaded 10 more on my old laptop before waiting an hour. I started day 35 of my 54 day rosary novena at 10:58pm and ended it at 11:23pm. I then uploaded the last of my Thailand stuff, finishing off with Yasothon province and going to sleep cuddling with my kitty.

Song of the Day: What’s My Age Again - Blink-182 (1999)
 
September 9th, 2026: Great day today, I got belated birthday wishes from Markus’ brother and from Enosh. I woke up to have cereal for breakfast as my mean cat begged me to pour her a tiny bit of milk. I worked on my training for the baseball stadium usher job but halfway had to move back to my room because my sister coming into my room for her remote job, I got my training completed while not paying attention to most of it. After I was done with training, my mom came in and asked me how I’m doing financially and she said that if I need any money to just ask her. I later had some orzo meal and another thing for lunch, after lunch I had a slice of my cake, there was roughly 1/4th of the cake left. I worked on packing to head home for a while and my dad had me come outside to put the grill thing on top of the minivan and fasten it down. My dad needed to get on a call so I did 3 of the 4 pieces to fasten it. I had some more green beans and ginger ale before we got ready to drive to the bus stop at 2:20pm. We arrived 10 minutes early and I said goodbye to my dad before getting on the bus and taking it home. I got back a little later than expected due to some traffic and narrowly missed by city bus so I had to wait 15 minutes for the later bus. I got on and sat down in the crowded bus. At 5:26pm Thomas got on the bus I was riding but I only said hi to him when I was about to get off. I went into my apartment to get dressed more formally and saw all the new decorations that he had put up: that one flag of Nicki Minaj in a blue bikini saluting with the United States flag behind her, the flag of Australia, the Irish flag with a green clover in the white part, a poster of Wrigley field and the 2004 schedule of the Chicago Bears, and some other sports stuff that was included. I actually tore open the sewing on my grey blazer’s pockets so they function normally now. I wore my Ralph Lauren white button-down with no tie before charging my phone and then taking my portable charger because I was at like 42%, I didn’t really need it but when I got to the bus stop to get off, I walked in and waited for the speech to start near the front, I saw others I knew including Yor and Loid sitting with their parents, Maaenboodhoo was also there, and a little bit later at 7:01pm, the talk started, and here’s all I recorded (it should be noted that TurboScribe.ai has a weird habit of straight up skipping entire sentences when transcribing and it doesn’t take context clues when transcribing, like the sentence about the speaker’s son living in a diocese with a TLM-unfriendly bishop):
“Great attendance. Welcome, Peter. Thank you. I was in the Polish church [unintelligible]. We know that you come here. Polish families, this church, to welcome you to my special place of privatization. We studied in good contact, and also distal contact, with the motivation of many parishioners here and their amazing generosity. So, thank you. We are going to listen to you, as much as you want to listen to me. And for those who might be thinking that this is a special guest, two upcoming doctorate programs in late September, and another one, which is going to be in late November, due to the same reason, and which is a good result. And now I would like to create sentiment of that spirit, and they shall be debated, and that shall remove the face of the earth. Let us pray, that by the same spirit, we may be always, truly wise, and never be judged, in this consolation, through Christ our Lord. Hail Mary, full of grace, full of grace. Saint [church name saint], pray for us. In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. Amen. I would like to say a very special thank you to the sponsor of this event. And we have about 60 people in the audience today.” - Older French priest
“Thank you canon, would you like to make an introduction? Thank you all for being here this evening. It's a magnificent privilege. Saint [church name saint], I was last here about eight years ago, during my visit for Sunday Mass, and it's even more meaningful right now, than it was seven years ago. Also, I just wanted to mention, the ancient Latin rite of Mass, was born in the 4th century, reached its maturity in the latter ages, found its definitive congregation in the 16th century, and remained basically unchanged from then until the mid-20th century. It is a highly distinctive rite, with many peculiar features, that people who are accustomed to the simplified Latin rite, used after Vatican II, often find complexity. Why is the traditional Mass the way it is? Why does it act the way it acts? If we can answer well to the prior question, namely, what is the Mass? We will find the clues we need to appreciate the genius or spirit of the old rite. And we may end up discovering some of the reasons why it has grown and continues to grow inherently, even in spite of original dismay. God created us from nothing. He made our souls, our bodies. We belong to Him. Moreover, we were born into a condition of estrangement from Him, as [unknown] said. He rescued us in baptism from the punishment all human beings deserve. On account of this double debt of creation and of redemption, we owe everything to Him, in the order of nature and in the order of grace. We owe Him a debt of gratitude, a debt of justice, of love. We can never be sufficient to demand the mercy of His great goodness and the goodness of Christ. In the Mass, which is the masterpiece of God's physical person, our Lord makes present His once and for all sacrifice of Christ. By the offering of the very same body and blood of our All-Product, He collapses the 2000 years that separate us from Calvary…”
[technically it’s 1993, or 1996 if you’re going off the 30 AD crucifixion date]
“...and brings us right to the foot of His cross. When we freely unite ourselves to this offering of Jesus at the hands of the priest, we give to God the glory and honor He deserves, the right to worship we owe Him and could never give Him on our own. The Father looks upon us and says: ‘You have given me that which pleases me. My only-begotten Son, whom I am, loves me.’ This is why the Mass is the most perfect. The Mass is first the offering, in the sacrifice of Christ, of religious worship. We owe a triune God. The Mass is not, first of all, even though it has elements of the New World in it. Just as the priesthood sacrifices offer to God, so too did the New Covenant. The Mass is the sacrifice of the victim to God, of which those who are baptized into Christ's priesthood are allowed. The Mass is not a sort of stylized reenactment of the Last Supper, as most Protestants, and now many Catholics, believe, but rather it makes it present with the oblation of the Son of God on the cross on Good Friday. It is a sacrifice that is also a meal, since our poorly exercised charity makes it possible for us to partake of the sacrificial victim so as to share one life, one spirit, one holiness. The Mass brings us into the presence of our Divine Redeemer, the Lamb and the Slave, who is worthy to receive power, divinity, wisdom, strength, and honor, glory, and permission. Hence, before receiving the Eucharist, we must adore the Eucharist of the Lord Himself. St. Augustine says: ‘We would sin if we did not adore.’ What does it mean to adore? It means this, to acknowledge God's reality, His authority, His kingship, and His task of sovereignty among us. It is the same beginning, not necessarily just these words. You are first and last, beginning and the end. I belong to you. I submit myself to you. I desire to inherit you. May you succeed as you wish. Once we realize that the Mass is primarily an offering to God, or His glory, an offering of Jesus Christ and of ourselves united in Him, we will be able to ask, not what can I get out of it, but rather, what should I be? Order our life as we choose, and we will damage ourselves if we fail to do it. When we understand the Mass as the making present of the sacrifice of the cross by which our conversion was given to the Holy Trinity and the homage of adoration, we will then grab the special features of the traditional life of us that help to foster this life. First, let's consider a sonic iconostasis. This may be a great orthodox iconostasis, or screen of icons placed in between the gate and the sanctuary, centered off on the altar of the residence space. The sanctuary represents the divine virgin heavenly Jerusalem, in which we participate at distance while we are still on pilgrimage. Meanwhile, encouraging children to enter through the iconostasis and go even up to the altar, because they are acting as his representatives. For about the first 1500 years of Christianity, the Latin West also had symbolic partitions: curtains were hung, later roof screens, carved wooden screens surmounted by a crucifix were set up by the Catholic churches. You have something irreverent of a wooden screen here, but in the medieval church, even when one could see through the barrier, its presence reminded us, first, that we are separated, that we have mutual reconciliation as a community, that God is both among us as Emmanuel, and beyond us as our transcendent and all-holy Lord. Although responsible for all creatures appointed with signs, God is not, in his own nature, accessible to human senses. A Benedict monk writes: ‘for centuries it was not possible to see up close the mystery of the altar.’ In certain periods, curators would draw on the most important moments of the Mass...” - Kwasniewski

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September 9th, 2026 (Continued): “...Still today, the solemn prayers of consecration are said in the lowest of tones, a mere whisper, as the drama of their jail falls. The innocence intrinsic to the Mass, with an iconostasis of the visiting writer, was common to all energies in some form many centuries ago. It summoned the atmosphere of mystery. In our age, which demands to see in order to be, like the Vatican calls it, God is offering us a chance to rediscover mystery, the mystery of the Mass as I see it. I see it. We must rely on an invisible medicine for our ultimate salvation. At the time of the so-called Reformation, Protestants, who conducted it, stood by and gave it over to Christ. As the stories have shown, partly in response to the Protestant Church, and partly in response to changing the aesthetic ideas of the pilgrim, the Church, before the Reformation, created churches and sanctuaries so that the laity could have an unheeded view of the world. Nevertheless, a more subtle and, I would argue, equally effective set of separators remained in place. I'd like to highlight a small iconostasis, a separator that you hear. This iconostasis is made up of three elements, the Latin language, Gregorian chant, and silence. Pontius Pilate's testament to many Church followers that these three languages are meant to play a special role in salvation history. St. Thomas Aquinas noted that it is fitting for the Roman writer of the past, which contains the representation of the Passion of Christ, to combine all three languages, Hebrew, in words such as: ‘Alleluia’, ‘Sabaoth’, ‘Hosanna’, ‘Amen’, Greek: ‘Kyrie’, ‘Eleison’, and Latin, and the rest. Even in ancient times, many people spoke Latin, and as the centuries rolled on, it acquired the status of a secret language, that is, one second part of the Roman language, where we leave behind the everyday to come in place and enter into the sphere of history. By the use of a narrow archaic and changing tongue, we are driven out of ourselves, out of our own place, time, culture, and society, to the foot of the cross, where human salvation is accomplished in its essence. Unlike our ever-changing grammatical history, Latin is universal. It does not belong to us. It belongs to all, and to none. It is the same everywhere, and yet still important, like God Himself, who is present everywhere and transcendent of all creation. To the extent that He is vast, He leads our grasp. We are reminded that He is omnipotent, for that would be to reduce Him to our level. As St. Augustine said: ‘If you can wrap your mind around Him, it's not God.’ Gregorian chant is the musical clothing in which the Latin liturgical text is addressed, or better yet, the musical body and soul of the liturgical form for itself during its slow dissipation for several centuries. With its unsurpassed variety of global melodies and its unbeaten free rhythm, this chant instantly recognizes the whole scene of music, signals the very presence of God, and are there to offer the incense of our lips and our hearts. There is no other type of music that even comes clos to the Gregorian chant for the out-of-the-world uniqueness of the Latin text. Silence. How much we can say about it without finding out-of-the-words as we would expect. ‘My soul waits in silence for God alone. From Him comes my salvation.’ says the psalmist. The profanity of the long silences of the traditional Latin mass are like oases where we can find refreshment for our spiritual souls. They open up a time and space of encountering God, as began in 1 Corinthians 3. More interior than what is innermost of the being, higher than what is highest of the being. The silence encourages an attentive watch, listening, talking. It allows for the complex of ceremonies when we use the sacrifice to make an impression on us. It frames the words of the chants so that they resonate with all our souls. Part of the reason the silences of the old mass are so poignant is that they result naturally in the unfolding of the liturgical action instead of being interrupted by uplifting and suspensions of action. The silence of the final work lets us acknowledge the importance of the silence is a sort of spiritual frustration of the senses of the human faculties in the most climactic moments of worldly sacrifice. Without identifying the actions, the chants, and the beautiful things we can and should do through religion, we must acknowledge that there are points when we are simply struck with doubt. By observing these moments of thoughtlessness, we enhance our realization of the unspeakable miracle that can take place in the sanctuary, which is the very heart of the silent life process. So, let's look at the eastward orientation. Worship ad orientim. It's not about the doctrine, the rights of the doctrinal foundations, or the traditions. It is not a statement or a text. Now, it's more basic. In God, worship, a disposition or a stance with God, a wordless act can be taken with our entire being, serving as an experiential foundation for much of what would be true about Christ. Christians have been worshiping God ad orientem for centuries before anyone even thought to write down a Bible textbook. In the year 875, so quite early on, St. Basil of Caesarea, one of the greatest fathers of the Church, speaks of the apostolic custom of returning to the East after years of prayer. This practice called for inspiration and confirmation in scripture passages that called Christ the Orient, or saying he ascended to the East so that he will return from the East. Jesus says of himself in Matthew 24, Prophesying the ascension of Christ, Psalm 67 tells us, Zechariah announced to the Messiah in this way, Zechariah is his name, while Malachi calls Christ the Son of Justice, as human. As the sun rises in the East, so the Son of God is the true light that vanishes in the darkness of error, sin, and death. As St. John's Gospel teaches us, the location of true worship is in the crucified risen Christ. He is the true machine. As man is the way to the Father's house, he is God, the destination. So we place East, not because we are referencing any other sacred place on earth, such as Jerusalem or Hebron, in that case we have to turn in all sorts of directions, but because we are turning to the one who is the temple in his body, Christ the Holy One, and turning with him to the Father. The East functions as the cosmic and scriptural symbol, Christ himself, of his ancient birth, his return to glory, and his heavenly kingdom, for which we yearn. The return to glory, the deification of the cosmos, of nature, is such a fascinating location we find. Facing the East together is perhaps the most striking and immediate way of symbolizing that we need to recognize the higher power, the higher ourselves, even though we stand by our bodies to the church, higher approaching. When the priests stand at random in the same direction as the congregation, it features both his individuality and ours. It emphasizes that he is standing in Christ, the high priest, the head of his body, by himself, the rest of the congregation. He is the head of a body. The priest, the tabernacle, underlines that he is not doing anything. He is doing something for that. And in his honor, shielding the miracle that in any case the naked eye cannot perceive, harmonizes with the sensible barriers already mentioned in the sign of the Anastasis. It is as if the celebrating priest, eager to promise by virtue of his probation, becomes the living iconostasis before the altar, an image standing there, revealing not himself. The kind of chasm that has led him to the seat of the High Priest. The priest disinterheres into his role, so that when the servers reach the edge of the chasm by the elevations of the most of the chalice, they know that he, too, is the pool of the garment. In this double elevation, the hole of creation. Third, let's consider the Roman rites. I think this, I think it's that expression. Because of the Latin, chant, silence, and peaceful orientation, the traditional mass transmits a sreal womang sense of worship of deity, ego-centered, directed to God. This expression is reinforced by its multiple layers of text and ceremonial meaning. Facing with this density of processing and the sign of the deity that is made exactly at the same time, man is in the intuits that this liturgy tells us about. He is finally able to be part of God. He concludes with this, by means of intuition, that there must be something far above him. Often many things are going on simultaneously, with different ministers exercising different roles, as happens in the reality of the cosmos, with its hierarchies of angels and men, as well as interconnected organisms, partners, forces, and systems. The chanting of this ritual simmers while the priest and servant recite the prayers included in the altar. And as the priest ascends the altar steps, saying the private prayers, a haunting melody of interior music is heard. Such overlapping and over-expansions take place throughout the entire mass. This is all good. The more we are surrounded by an immersive prayer, the more our hearts and aspirations are stirred up in our time. Part of this improvement in the fullness or density of the intrusive mass is the number of symbolic actions. In addition to the altar of the Sanctuary of Shasta, he places the amulets over his shoulders, the mannequin on his left wrist, the parasol, and the coat of arms around his neck. The best way to view it is to compare it with a rock. Signs of subtle, shitoko evading devotion and adoration, such as the priest kissing the altar eight times during the mass instead of only twice, bowing his head to honor God or saints at significant raises, may be many generations before the blessed sacrament...” - Kwasniewski

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September 9th, 2026 (Continued): “...There are more light things to catch our notice, such as the altar guards left, right, and center, the missile stand which moves from right to left and back again in a small procession that corresponds to different stages of prayer, the row of candles with the crucifixes in the center. These vestments, prayers, gestures, items, all of them are props to God, reminding us that while we are there, encouraging us to make an appropriate spiritual response to the great, the scandalous, the deadly, the mystery of faith unfolding in our midst. The old rite of mass often features more than one set of orations, columns, sepia, posthumous orations, because of overall conveniences of collaboration with lesser sites. For example, the mass that we often encounter at the Evangelicals is a vacuum, but complete collaboration of members from inside. The odd shot is that one never feels as if one is skimping on a little drink of water. There is no room for all the perps. This elusive and expansive character lends a richness of texture. Each ear differs in some way to the one before, while yet possessing the dominant limits of stability and comprehensiveness, since there are no objects to speak of. This brings me to the fourth characteristic. The rite's fixed and limited texts. Somewhat paradoxically, given what I just said about density and complexity, the classical Roman rite is at the same time more compact in terms of the amount of text it contains, and more particular in terms of what it will mean. The missal has almost no deviation from a pre-set routine and calendar, which makes it very easy to grow familiar with its texts and ceremonies, once you've gotten over the initial learning curve. I like to say to people, the traditional Latin mass is like a brick wall when you first come to it, but if you make an effort to climb over it, you will find yourself in a class neatly aligned to it. The traditional Latin mass contains phrases, sentences, and prayers. The sign of the cross is painted many, many times by the priest and by the people in the meditation hall. The period is said to divide the litany. Three periods for the father, three periods for the son, three periods for the spirit. Outside of Advent and Lent, the gloria is recited on most days of the year, and the creed is said more often than it knows what. The personal confession is said by means of the Confiteo, or its name, three times. Once by priest, once by ministers, and again by ministers, right after communion. Doxological formulas. For example, the gloria gives the father a prayer of communion through our Lord Jesus Christ, our Son, and within the reign of the faith, the unity of the Holy Ghost of God forever and ever. The host is hailed as an immaculate victim. The name of our Blessed Mother is uttered almost a dozen times during Mass. The priest, he says, dominates us with weakness, with weakness, with necromancy, and not with benevolence. That I am not worthy. Lord, I am not worthy. Only say the word and my soul shall be healed. Three times before he receives. And then he says it three times together with people or a stranger at communion. In other words, it is said six times instead of once. All of these examples of repetition give a distracted person's soul a chance to catch up with his body, while giving the devout soul a chance to pour out perfection. A single word is never enough. Those who practice the blessing of the Venetian are very creative on benefits. One must fortify the desire to manage much to escape all the waste. In other words, the blessing of the Venetian is not enough. One has to breathe. In just the same way, the one-year lecturing of the traditional Holy Missal affords the worshipper time to absorb a certain set of luminous, pivotal passages, well chosen for the liturgical purpose. Meeting these texts repeatedly, one puts the palm on the garland, or insulates it like food and drink. One begins to think and pray in their phrases. Patterns and forms of scripture, or to use one familiar, drinking of the fire-horse. That tends to happen with people. What happens when the Venetianary has the classical world right at the top of the mountain or the comet, goes to communion from Psalm 42 at the start to the middle of the higher missal, before it is finished. Since there are far fewer burial rites, there is a single usual prayer around the cabin, which is used every time, and a limited number of purposes. The saints are celebrated, usually in a complex made up of liturgical verses and prayers. The worshipper gets to be ever more familiar with the content of the Mass and can be more creative. Fifth, let's consider the outwardly difference from that of the liturgy in saints. Several hundred more are celebrated or commemorated each year in Mass. This makes for a big difference if you move on forward. Since the end promises of prayer to Jesus are usually determined by the priesthood. The truth of the matter here is that the saints are the most perfect exemplars of Christ, as He is the perfect image of the Father. So the Mass can be at once saint-centered and Christ-centered. St. Paul himself says of the Corinthians, The Corinthians begin to hear of me as I am Christ, suggesting that there is more competition between these things. Gather the saints together to be those who may be comforted by me by sacrifice, as King David says. The typical liturgical cycle, parts of the year that correspond to the main mysteries of the life of our Lord Jesus Christ, is more differentiated. Advent is the same, but Christmas is a longer season. Beyond nocte culminating in the Feast of the Superstition of Christ, the twelve days of Christmas culminate in the Epiphany on January 6th. Then, in the new time, bathes us in the light of the new and great flesh, with pandemics every second ending that new season. Three weeks before Ash Wednesday there comes the immediate season of preparation of the Lent, also to a Jesuit, which decades later leads to the psychological transition. Lent itself yields the Passion Friday when all the reminiscence is taken away. Passion Friday means where, in addition to the main religion, Advent and the season of the Atonement, Passover Friday culminates in the Ascension Friday. The Sundays throughout the year are called either Sundays at the Pentecost or Sundays after. The ancient observance is that the number of days of probation is the four opportunities to give thanks to God by supernatural gifts, to do penance for our sins, and to pray for Samaritans and Apostles, on occasions of the New Year's Eve. All this may sound complicated, and in a way it is. But we have to carry around all of this help, just like me. The fact that so many folks are all here on how to recapture the Calvary and infuse positive Christian meaning in the Calvary Church sends additional hope. Six. Let's consider the Eucharist of Reverence. The traditional Eucharist practices and thereby inculcates the utmost reverence for the Most Holy Eucharist. At a solemn Mass, incense is required to renew to the four times that it has to be inhabited. At the altar during the period, it has been used as a sacrificial place. At the Gospel, it is the Word itself speaking to us. At the altar tomorrow, because the bread and wine of the priest set aside exclusively for sacrificial use, will be put to victory. In order to prevent the scattering of any artifacts, and to remind ourselves of the possibilities of the Eucharist, the priest holds his thumb and forefinger together after the consecration of the Eucharist, and keeps them together until he bows and gently lights many times towards the Blessed Sacrament. Holding the hands of the Parishioner, kneeling in the posture, this millennium-old sacrament at the altar, and in receiving it on the top of the Eucharist, the minister literally embodies our dependency on God, our loathiness and unworthiness, our need to call to adoration. In this practice, it is contained in the Hebrew. One of the Psalms says, In the supernatural domain, we are all children who need to be fed by God. Fed with the bread of His Son. As many of you know, it is indicated that two-thirds of self-described Catholics in the United States, and one-third of all Catholics who regularly attend Mass, do not believe in the real presence of God. They do not believe in the bread, the wine, or anything that truly changed into the body of our Lord Jesus Christ. Instead, they adhere to the symbols of God. Undoubtedly, war and crisis outside of Mass are an expectation. We must see, as it informs the conventional practice, what is needed. God's personal presence gives us no cause for abandoning reverential fear and expression of ourselves. Dependency is a major feature of the Christian community. Quite the contrary. The Trinity has power in the New Kingdom. You might sum up this point by saying, Actions speak louder than words. That's a lesson I wish I could convince bishops to come. Seventh, and last, on this list, let's look at the Trinity atmosphere. In terms of this atmosphere, the traditional Mass can be described as canonical or regal. It includes features reminiscent of the Holy Service...” - Kwasniewski

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September 9th, 2026 (Continued): “...Jesus refused an earthly kingdom. He did not want to be confined. That is, his unbending divine law. The Mass points everything to him, to his cross, to his glorious reign. Be thou exalted, O God, above the heavens and the earth. Amen. In the last few years, as I said earlier, the solemn, public, formal act of adoration and extended exaltation offered by Christ to the High Priest, to the Father, and by His entire Catholic community, in the few years since the foremost act of the virtue of religion, by which we offer to God a sacrifice of praise worthy of His glory, if it is the chief expression of the theological virtues of faith over charity, if it is the kingdom of heaven breaking into our earthly timetables, if it advances the establishment of the entire creative universe in its beginning and its end, if it is all these things that its truth is, then it follows that we cannot possibly offer the Mass with too much solemnity, lavish on it too much care and reverence, expend too much effort on surrounding it with music, art. Thus, the approval of the Church, century after century, employed all her care in worshipping the Lord, from the incapacities and mercies of the Christians who did what they could, to the grand disciplines of the Constantine, within the great cathedrals of the Middle Ages, to the ornate edifices of the Catholic Reformation, through the upheavals of modern-day worships gathered at the feet of the Second Vatican Council. Always and everywhere, the Holy Mysteries were performed, venerated, and received in a continual, unwavering Catholic way, accompanied by truly theological insight and spiritual intuition that matured into a well-established ritual that was perfectly suited to their content and purpose. What happened then? The Fathers of the Second Vatican Council celebrated the truth of the Mass at all processions. They did not vote to retire or abolish the small Mass, contrary to the ignorant state law of the reigning monarchy, where all events emerge in a single day. The Fathers of the Second Vatican Council did not vote to retire or abolish the Mass, or even to change its most striking features. Latin as the primary language, Hubertian chant as the primary music, the East as the common direction of all worshippers, open Latin as the primary art of activity, the Temple a shitoko like the Calvary, Communion received the healing of the tongue, and most of Catholic intervention. How, then, did we end up getting, in the late 1960s, a new Mass so different from the Mass created by the Church since time immemorial? To answer that question, we must take a brief look at the influential liturgical movement of the 19th and 20th centuries. This movement, through rediscovering the central place of the Church's public worship and Christian life, can be described in terms of three distinct phases, although the boundaries for one of the next will be somewhat different. The first phase, exemplified by young, prosperous Gheorghe and his great group of liturgical peers, aimed at a better understanding and celebration of the heritage of the liturgy through popular explanations and clerical and religious education. The leading idea was to take the treasures we already had. Gheorghe should be often cited in ancient sources to flesh out his commentaries, but without implying that the Church had gone astray in the medieval and post-medieval development of the liturgy, or that she should revert only to ancient faiths that coincided with the philosophy of communion and monastic life. The second phase was characterized by outstanding progress in historical, archaeological, linguistic, and theological research. It retained a profound respect for the art of commission, but sometimes spoke of behavioral and temporal communications, and showed a decided preference for what was, or at times was imagined by scholars to be, the most legionary, and therefore the most authentic of rites. This attitude was called anti-religion, and it led certain individuals to adapt to the situation. For example, celebrating Mass raised the people out of the conviction that this would be the first celebration of Masses during the 1930s. The dangerous tendency is that this phase would call back to the times of 12th and is now predating 24th. Despite the insignificance of this phase, it was meant to put a brake on it, at least in the 1960s, as more and more of its members indulged in pastoral experiments and created several parallel liturgies. Alternative and parallel liturgies intended, they said, to reach people where they were at and get them involved. Heavy liturgical requirements of the Catholic Council were already announced, but the attitude was struck for ones that had previously been lost in society. This third phase provided a selective and precarious effort in the 1880s and 1920s that sought above all the people's benefit of understanding the practices and terms. All three phases of the movement emphasized the lay of the law. The first phase saw it primarily in terms of required education, being initiated into a great tradition that one could explore for a lifetime, and participating in the liturgy to improve the rites. The second phase promoted the use of hand missiles for daily missions, devotional deeds for the living of your dear, and popular singing of hymns and chants. The third phase took an ideological turn, as Paul's liturgists embraced the conviction that the liturgy ought to be clear, accessible, verbal, linear, and metaphorical, modifying the law of man. From Paul VI to [I have no idea], it established a total value to his call to moderate the world, as carte blanche, or an unprecedented wholesale reconstruction. The controversial changes to the liturgy from 1948 to 1975 could be described as the general contractor of this massive project of demolition. While we can admit that the reformers were responding to certain problems of their time, we can also see, looking back on our present vantage, that they were often mistaken in their theories, naive in their assumptions, and callous in their possible strategy. The politics of the community is said to have spread. We are surely desirable in some social situations, but there is ample reason to question whether they suited well the religious ceremonies of which man comes. Indeed, even common voices in favor of liturgical reforms subsequently expressed their regrets and dismay at much of what was done to win the liturgy. There was, we might say, a certain amount of requires and remorse. In any case, history has moved on, and the Church is now in a much different place than it was fifty years ago. The past liturgies still respond to essential, numerous social needs, and in addition, the response to certain needs, even though sacred, remains sacred and great for us, too. As a priest observes, The reality of the life of the Church in the beginning of the 21st century is that the form of the Church, particularly of the Roman Rite, is a living liturgical rite in which people, indeed significant and growing numbers of young people, participate fully, actually, consciously, and truthfully in a manner that would have brought great counsel and pioneers in the 20th century liturgical movement. Joseph Ratzinger famously called it in which...” - Kwasniewski

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September 9th, 2026 (Continued): “...In my life as a Catholic, I have walked through several state stages over a long period of time. In the first stage, which covered adolescence, I was trying to be a good son and dutiful to my parents, held ten commandments morality that was, yes, a little out of commission. The parish church I attend was a typical suburban church. Midway through high school, a friend invited me to attend a meeting of a local charismatic group. Initially skeptical, I quickly fell in love and is a respectful and economic one. Thanks largely to the Catholic Church, which was very dedicated to the pro-life cause, I discovered in that group three important things. First, that the Catholic faith proposed it, and therefore has the truth by which everything else has. Second, that practicing the faith did not have to be boring and unsatisfying. Third, that those who believe in God, the Immortal Soul, the Sacraments, and the Prayer are, for the most part, better and happier people, who, in turn, remain to a better and happier friends. And yet, after spending a couple of years in this group, some things started to wear thin about me. The experience was rather like what happens after a sugar high, or pony low. Trying to be a good son of a Jew didn't seem realistic or even desirable, and made me somehow find something more permanent, more stable, more reliable. This is the end of my class at Rice College, where chaplains offered a form of reverence of taking serious things seriously. It made quite an impression on me. I had never seen anyone like it before. Later on in college, I occasionally operated by sliding into the queue of a tiny chaplain and getting completely lost. Another secret started to dawn on me. The presence, meaning, and value of tradition, of doing what has been done for ages, with the same rites that countless chaplains have done over the centuries, praying in the same orders as greater saints of the past, entering into the mysteries of Christ in the way that demands a transformation of mind and heart, even in the great acts of worship. I had never been in this school, and began following it, and enrolled myself in an unexpected school, and gradually rose through its cradles. Finding this energy and yielding to it was the end of a search for which I did not even know. This form of class became all that I had found at each stage of my journey, yet it was beyond life. It was, as it remained, inexhaustible. An infinite, visceral, opening factory for history, forward to eternity, outwards to culture. This is why, having both graduated from college, my fiancée and I chose to be married in the old, and then have our children in the pastoral. My oldest child, about twenty-six, was married in the old rites, and my grandchild was baptized in the Byzantine rite, this was chosen because they live in a place where the bishop was hostile to the Roman rite. I can see from my travels how very young people respond to the values and virtues of Catholic tradition. They seem to be hungry for the religious ruthlessness that our ruthless and restless society denies them elsewhere. I think this is truly a case where we should take to heart the words of the Apostle St. John: ‘He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith in the churches.’ The Spirit be speaking to us of the depths of our Catholic tradition, and may our lives elicit it...” - Kwasniewski
There was an unceasing popping that happened throughout the speech from the church that ruined it. For the questions and answers, there were a few including one asking about the hostility towards the TLM, which I remember Mr. Kwasniewski explaining Traditionis custodes never forbade private Latin masses, and he mentioned that a traditional mass held by the priest at an unannounced time with the doors conveniently propped open counts as private mass. We went to a different room for the book sale and got lined up for the book signing. I was the only one there to bring a book but I was near the front of the line so I got my missal signed early, I thought he might refuse due to it being distasteful but I got it. I crossed the road without a walk sign because I feared I might miss the bus but I got the light. At 8:41pm on the bus ride home, I heard a rough Black guy mumbling behind me, he then tapped me on the shoulder so I instantly went to the front of the bus, I pulled down a seat up front so these 2 women could sit down. I got home and took a shower before I started day 36 of my 54 day rosary novena at 10:54pm and ended it at 11:20pm, then I went to sleep.

Song of the Day: Don’t Go - Yazoo (1982)
 
September 10th, 2026: Another lazy day. Well I had to go and get my card after getting breakfast and coffee, I walked out at roughly 9:00am and then 5 minutes away from the bank, some old guy asked me:
“Are you a college student?”
I replied:
“No, just heading to the bank.”
I went around and got to the bank to ask for a new debit card, but they told me that their card printer didn’t work so I just withdrew some cash. I walked around a bit before getting back to the bus and then taking it to the grocery store, I got there and bought stuff like bananas, lettuce, avocados, mussels in a bag, and most importantly discounted angus steak. I knew I had to cook the steak for dinner tonight, I took the bus home and went to work on the Lolcow map I was dealing with for a while. Online, there were a ton of godless liberals celebrating the 1 year anniversary of the assassination of Charlie Kirk, I know Monique was having a meltdown because she posted quotes of Charlie Kirk saying that he didn’t think DEI pilots were a good thing and also that he had issues with the civil rights movement, I still remember all the liberals crying about "suppression" and “democratic backsliding” because they experienced some of the cancellation they gave out for celebrating and joking about his death. I also heard about this dummy named SimpleBlackTheory who was an awful debater and every negative stereotype about Black people with added leftism to go with, he got crushed in a debate with Jesusandwhatnot so badly that he chimped out and left early, I think he was the guy who tried to “debunk” the Nick Shirley fraud investigations. I pivoted for a moment to manually apply to the grocery store I worked at, a coffee place as a delivery driver, and a regular coffee store. I was still cooped up in my room, occasionally reading a few guides on pan searing a steak, including a video from the famous chef Gordon Ramsey that mentioned herbs and garlic, which I didn’t have for my cooking, I did it regardless and first seasoned the raw meat with old seasoning salt, I failed to make tiny cuts to the meat for better absorption and made sure to follow the instructions about putting olive oil in first and then later the butter to baste the steak, I opened a can of sliced tomatoes to go with it and then took a picture of the food:
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After I was done eating while watching this video about Jungle Jim's International Market in Farfield, Ohio. I booted up the Wii to play some Mario Kart Retro Rewind online, I got my VR up a bit and then got off to work on writing in my blog and finishing up the transcript of the speech then shortly writing the rest of it, I took my shower a bit earlier than usual. I started day 37 of my 54 day rosary novena at 9:01pm and ended it at 9:23pm. I did a lot of dishes while praying the rosary and even had to pass by Waleran and his girlfriend in their bedroom, with the lights off while getting bleach to soak some of the rags.

Song of the Day: La vie en rose - Taco (1982)
 
September 11th, 2026: 25th anniversary of 9/11, in fact, my mom used to babysit for Jeff LeVeen, and also I am very distantly related to Martin Coughlin, who died. I woke up and got out of bed to have cereal and coffee. I got on the computer to play a good amount of Mindustry until around 12:00pm. I realized I kinda wasted my time with that. I got a little bit dressed up and noticed that my roommate and his girlfriend were at classes, I wrote more and then went outside for a bit. I actually did a round of dishes earlier than I would have because Waleran and his girlfriend made some pasta yesterday and left a ton of dishes. I then went back into my room and received a notification that the coffee place I applied to wants to interview me for a job, I accidentally listed an available time that overlapped with the venture I needed to do to the county over on Monday. I applied to two jobs today, one as a receptionist at a dentists office and another at a generic office job. I got a message from Waleran later asking us if I wanted to join them later on to head over to Jerry’s house, I said I would and continued writing in my blog. I cooked up a 5 pack of bratwurst to eat with the sliced potatoes. Waleran and his girlfriend ate at before we went to the nearby convenience store for some liquor to bring to them. I got a tiny soda and waited outside for my roommate and his girlfriend to finish up buying some Miller Lite then we walked to Jerry’s apartment, he let us inside and we went to see that he had a cat named Huell, We all took a shot of Jägermeister (first time for me, tastes like licorice) and washed it down with Dr Pepper and we tried to watch Cabin in the Woods but the slow loading time prompted us to try switching to a DVD that Jerry had collected. I decided to watch A Clockwork Orange and Jerry said he loved the movie. I also did but with all the parts that contained nudity and murder really disgusted me. Huell the cat was only somewhat cuddly, initially indifferent to my petting to sometimes rubbing up against my hand. I tried to get him into my lap but the cat just enjoyed sitting in the window which led to the lawn while Huell watched the movie with us. I thought the Ludovico technique had obvious flaws, like the unnecessary use of classical music. Jerry mentioned that he had a cousin who worked at a museum I applied to work with downtown. Jerry also said some commentary stuff about how the name A Clockwork Orange is a reference to in-universe slang about someone who could get better but is just stuck in a cycle. We went outside to smoke halfway through the movie. Jerry told me he’s in his senior year for forensics while Waleran’s girlfriend mentioned an aunt Valerie who got drug tested the day after she joked about being able to smoke weed after retiring. We went back inside and had more beer as we finished up the movie. I said I needed to get home and left them. Jerry told me as I was leaving:
“You’re free to come over anytime!”
I’ll probably take him up on his offer, I walked home and took a shower while working on writing a lot I started day 38 of my 54 day rosary novena at 11:14pm and ended it at 11:35pm, doing the dishes in between the sorrowful mysteries. I continued writing into the end of the day…

Song of the Day: Singin' in the Rain - Cliff Edwards, The Brox Sisters (1929)
 
September 12th, 2026: I finished up my blogpost at 12:10pm and then went off to sleep…
I woke up at 7:00am to something irrelevant on NPR. I was tired so I only got out of bed at 8:00am to have cereal and coffee. I got on the computer to write more for yesterday and also browsed the Booru and worked on the Lolcow map. I knew I had my first day today so I needed to check with my outfit, asking Warner about the correct kind of pants (he said khakis) which I wore. I didn’t have much effort or time to prepare lunch so I got an entire can of sweet corn for lunch. then waited until 1:00pm to get on the bus to take it downtown first, some women tried talking to me and then talking really loudly about they’re so attracted to tall guys and then one was talking about how 2 others had more curves than her, I should’ve told those degenerates to shut the fuck up. Downtown there was a guy who was working in the concessions on the bus with me. Then another concessions lady got in. By the time of our bus stop, there were 6 of us who worked at the bus station heading down, I walked down with them all as more and more people showed up, this guy helped me with getting in and where to go. I ended up in a line for a sale of promotional items, I saw one guy who’s name tag said he’s been working there since 1973 and another old guy asked me if I was a golfer, I said no. I then went out and waited until 2:45pm for our deployments to be listed. I walked up a short distance to the spot and saw people waiting outside. More and more people assigned to my group came in. Daniel S worked yesterday and he said he scanned over 3000 tickets, he’s distributing hats today and I remembered him from training. Tracy, Ivonne L, and Cindy were all there, Tracy gave me the rundown for my two tasks and finished up at 3:36pm. I noticed Tracy wearing something just like headphones around her neck but for cooling down. Nathan M is also in the same place as I am but he’s doing distribution then going to 3rd level to usher. Todd the old guy. asked me where I was working and I told him exactly where, he joined the same year but started earlier. After the roll call at 3:45pm I went over to the gate to scan people in with a hire called Ethan S who showed me the ropes quickly and then we went to scanning. Many times I thought I saw someone who looked like Patrick Sean Tomlinson but it wasn’t. Todd helped me out a few times with people having ticket issues and the record I got was for 7 tickets in a group at once. I went on break at 6:10pm and tried to buy something but with no cash. Donald since 2017 asked about the giveaway item but I had no idea. I went up a bit early to the desk for my next assignment, which was standing near the media box to usher. This one woman named Chris was the usher for the two sections besides me and she showed me the ropes, occasionally coming over. Chris is a math teacher who was here ever since 2018. We went down the stairs to check for people vaping or smoking. I had 2 foul balls in my sections and had to check on them. My legs were absolutely killing me for the entire game and only when the fireworks came on and we were allowed to sit down. I had to cross my legs to take the weight off of them. Our team won and we guided people out of the seats until the supervisor came over and dismissed me at 9:55pm and I walked down to the service level and out the way I came, all the way up to the bus stop. I sat down exhausted until the bus came and got on. I thought of texting Cliffe earlier today to ask him to stay the night at his place but I just took 2 buses home. I started day 39 of my 54 day rosary novena at 10:10pm and completed it at 10:32pm while waiting for the second bus, which took the alternative route which made me walk 9 blocks to get home. I took my shower sitting down and then continued writing for my blog. With my legs still killing me while I sat well past 11:59pm…

Song of the Day: The Four Horsemen - Metallica (1983)
 
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