honestly i think i done got AVPD or something at this point, i usually think psychiatry is a jewish concept (and it is) but that particular label for the goyim hits pretty hard to me.
i just failed a pretty big project in a film class because i walked out and hid in my car for an hour instead of finding a group to work with. it wasn't like someone said "ew go away noob" after politely asking to join their group, i basically assumed i was fucked from the get-go about 30 seconds after the prof told people to find one.
a few days ago i was talking to someone online that seemed to genuinely like talking to me. but, as with many such cases, they ran out of patience. i never reached out to them to initiate a conversation, not once. why? because that's what a horrible person does, they waste people's time. it was okay for them to do it, just not me. because they were elite.
last thing that noob said to me was "i wish you had told me at the start that you weren't interested in friendship. you hurt me a lot, you know that?". fucking shit dude thats the worst thing someones ever said to me