Nothing New Under the Sun

blog for my eschatoactivism, blackpilled, and other meaningless depressing thoughts or whatever since all i do is fucking whine

 

[supadrayk]

I've said it 6-7 million times but I will say it again, I do not want a girlfriend unless she loves me at least 75 percent for who I am. But I know this will never happen, all of my experience with girls (FROM CHURCH) have ended with her being a slf hypergamous whore. If church foids cant love conditionally then how am I supposed to believe that any of them have unconditional love? I will die alone and sometimes im ok with that and sometimes it makes me want to die even sooner.

 

[supadrayk]

unconditionally*

 

[supadrayk]

I should start segmenting these full fletched ideas into tinier sections so I can farm messages but that might be too obsessed

 

[Alei]

blog for my eschatoactivism, blackpilled, and other meaningless depressing thoughts or whatever since all i do is fucking whine
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IT'S OVER
BBCs won-AAAAAAAAAACCCCCKKKK

 

[Alei]

I should start segmenting these full fletched ideas into tinier sections so I can farm messages but that might be too obsessed

Shitoko hoejoe or however the obsession is brimmed

 

[supadrayk]

The book of the bible that has had the biggest influence on me is probably Ecclesiastes, not that it really changed me in any way but it really reinforced my hatred of this world. Truly, all is vanity of vanities, besides God. Am I supposed to take any joy in this meaningless world? This disgusting temporary world that will be eventually pass away (Revelation 21:1). SATANS WORLD (1 John 5:19). I'm glad I will inherit eternal life and I understand the idea of why I do live in this disgusting evil world, free will blah blah blah, but that does not mean I will not despise it. It's IMPOSSIBLE for me not to despise it at this point. What actual joys am I supposed to be able to take from this life? There is nothing here that matters. Nothing new under the sun. Only God, and I do not really need to live on this earth to be with him. "But noooooo you cant kill yourself thats a sinnnn!!!!" brutal

 

[supadrayk]

Just distracting myself from the meaninglessness until something eventually happens (nothing ever happens)

 

[supadrayk]

I have nothing that I want to distract myself with right now so all I can do is be a miserable little cacaot and vent into the void. A problem I've been facing more and more lately, and I don't know how to fix it.

 

[Alei]

3 obsessed brimposts above me

 

[supadrayk]

yep

 

[supadrayk]

girls lost JBG bro JBG

 

[CX2]

girls lost JBG bro JBG

bharat tgirl femcels such as myself wun doe

 

[supadrayk]

bharat tgirl femcels such as myself wun doe

true JFT bro JFT

 

[supadrayk]

How am I supposed to be happy? I get false illusions of happiness sometimes but I want true happiness. I want to feel alive for once. I don't want to be tired like this. But there is nothing in this world to take joy from anymore. The best way to be joyful was to hang out with people who truly care for you, for who you are. That doesn't exist anymore. Everyone wants something from you, for themselves. There is no real happiness anymore.

 

[supadrayk]

I need my soulsmatch. I hope she needs me too.

 

[supadrayk]

The world just needs to end already, its the morally right thing.

 

[supadrayk]

I want to cuddle my my dakimura pillow

 

[supadrayk]

 

[supersage]

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YOU ARE A BODYPILLOW NUSOI
YOU ARE A BODYPILLOW NUSOI
YOU ARE A BODYPILLOW NUSOI
YOU ARE A BODYPILLOW NUSOI
YOU ARE A BODYPILLOW NUSOI