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I have been considering making this thread - article? for some time now, but I wasn't too sure since it will just be me documenting my mental SNCA - though then I decided I don't really care and just want to use this as a tool for myself to archive my thoughts in an organized way. I feel disheartened, as everywhere else I've documented my thoughts have long since been lost and I liked to reflect on the things that have changed, and the things that I still need to work on though I'm persistent so I decided I will start all over again with this space I'll have created for myself for as long as this place comes to exist, who knows where things will go and there's so much I want to discuss in more detail - when I don't, my bottled up thoughts and complexities begin to feel unmanageable and I start to collapse in on myself. I don't know how this will be received, but I will state that I've never had any problems personally with anyone and I say this since I've noticed patterns with people feeling skeptical or off-put by me though I don't understand why when people need to learn how to communicate with other people before being so quick to act poorly, my personal thought and no offense meant in it.. I try not to step on anybody's heel, I like to just see where my day to day takes me because that's all we really can do in life, Ich guess.

 

[rap soon nick gurr]

ew

 

[Sylwia]

ew

ew?

 

[rap soon nick gurr]

ew?

you just brain vomitted everywhere

 

[Sylwia]

> you just brain vomitted everywhere

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I would assume this is the space to do exactly that.
the title was also named mind vomit for a reason,
you're very perceptive.

 

[shekel]

Kurt Cobain was a trans girl. HRT could've saved her.

 

[Hillel Hartmann (Pedo)]

do you abuse substances

 

[Sylwia]

do you abuse substances

does Benadryl count

 

[Hillel Hartmann (Pedo)]

does Benadryl count

I have no idea what that is but probably

 

[Sylwia]

I have no idea what that is but probably

then sure

 

[Barry]

You got mind vomit all over this place

 

[modderola]

so interesting to see a REAL Neet ChAn documenting hErr ment@l tho0ghts

 

[Twostripe]

You got mind vomit all over this place

spongebob nooooo

 

[modderola]

also if u feeling sad remember when i sent u this music

lemon demon cures you trust

 

[Soyspotter]

does Benadryl count

all my opinions of you are positive now PLEASE keep doing benadryl in high doses

 

[Apeson]

Kurt Cobain was a trans girl. HRT could've saved her.
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he did shoot himself so he had that part down.

 

[PumpkinEater69]

sprunki sprunki sprunki funky funky funky

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

You should read "Journals." It's just a compilation of his personal journal entries. I also related to him a lot when I was a little younger, and reading that just felt like I was reading my own journal.

 

[ARKHAN THE BLACK]

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I have been considering making this thread - article? for some time now, but I wasn't too sure since it will just be me documenting my mental SNCA - though then I decided I don't really care and just want to use this as a tool for myself to archive my thoughts in an organized way. I feel disheartened, as everywhere else I've documented my thoughts have long since been lost and I liked to reflect on the things that have changed, and the things that I still need to work on though I'm persistent so I decided I will start all over again with this space I'll have created for myself for as long as this place comes to exist, who knows where things will go and there's so much I want to discuss in more detail - when I don't, my bottled up thoughts and complexities begin to feel unmanageable and I start to collapse in on myself. I don't know how this will be received, but I will state that I've never had any problems personally with anyone and I say this since I've noticed patterns with people feeling skeptical or off-put by me though I don't understand why when people need to learn how to communicate with other people before being so quick to act like a cunt, my personal thought and no offense meant in it. I try not to step on anybody's heel, I like to just see where my day to day takes me because that's all we really can do in life, yeah?

I've been spending my time awake watching documentaries and videos about Kurt Cobain - there's a lot of connections I've come to realize that I make with him and I can't help but to find a lot of fascination about him, some of the things he's said in interviews and small social nods that feel almost foreshadowing to what would eventually come to happen to him by his own choice. I considered writing my own song at some point that will be a story regarding the interest and distant love for an artist long gone, with themes and aesthetics of the time despite the current year which would require me to use older forms of technology to pull off the style and frames I have in mind, though projects of mine are something that I always take time with though i's something I'd want to share with others when I finish creating these pieces of media, like a visual novel I've been working on as well. I just get very tired, and drained easily - things take me much longer as I often put things to the side, always feeling trapped in my own mind which sometimes makes things debilitating, a mind that never wants to shut up.

Whenever I feel like it,
I'll post to this space.
I don't have much else to say,
for now.

Cobain was a depressed guy with no ambition in his life that ended up in one of the top positions in our society. He had great ideas but he didn't have the patience to see it through, or his mental illness was so sreal womang that he couldn't overcome it in time. I hope he found his way to Heaven and found a way to reconcile with himself. Shit sucks.

 

[Sylwia]

You should read "Journals." It's just a compilation of his personal journal entries. I also related to him a lot when I was a little younger, and reading that just felt like I was reading my own journal.

I'll have to look into this, I knew about the journals and had already had the idea of wanting to research more into it since I could assume they would be deeply routed into his mental and I'm curious to see the way his mind worked in the moment of writing - something that I often do myself and I have a diary that I write in whenever I feel the need, akin to what I do when documenting my thoughts online. I can't explain it but sometimes I feel a form of guilt when I don't write for long periods of time like I'm leaving my diary to rot when it's something that's there to help me, did you ever have similar feelings with your own journal?

Cobain was a depressed guy with no ambition in his life that ended up in one of the top positions in our society. He had great ideas but he didn't have the patience to see it through, or his mental illness was so sreal womang that he couldn't overcome it in time. I hope he found his way to Heaven and found a way to reconcile with himself. Shit sucks.

Yeah - going from nothing, to the lead voice of his generation was probably jarring. In a way I feel in a painfully similar situation of mind, besides of course not being "famous" though there's just a lot of similarities in mannerisms and behavior and thoughts that have made me feel a nostalgic ache I can't completely put into words though I grew up during a time when this music was also played during early stages of my life. Watching interviews and compilations that are meant to be light hearted and "funny", watching the way Kurt would word things - there were a lot of warning signs and it sucks because it was also his own choice and he was clearly in a lot of pain though the drug addled lifestyle probably didn't help.



I don't know if anyone has seen or heard about lords of chaos but it's a movie I would recommend that's based on a true story though it got a lot of information wrong and admittedly the book has been on my backlog for some time though the movie was still an interesting watch, sad however because of it's real life counterpart and happenings that took place. It's not for everyone and it does have some themes that not everyone would stomach but it's still a piece of media that's something I wanted to mention since my brain 肉 recalled it even though it's been a few years since my last watch.

I'm about to spend my time writing down a few things in my diary before I possibly take a walk - I have been trying to get out more frequently even if it's late at night, the air is kind and it's comforting. I might share photos of my outside ventures - I considered using a vlogging camera I recently got to document things I find like plants or bugs or whatever else and creating videos and a channel to archive them to, it would be relaxing. I don't usually like to go outside much. ｡°(°.◜ᯅ◝°)°｡ I like to go to gas stations at night for coffee and food!!

But I want to do more with my time.