Nothing New Under the Sun

blog for my eschatoactivism, blackpilled, and other meaningless depressing thoughts or whatever since all i do is fucking whine

 

[Sir]

Yes, in normieville discord is normal. It only has a weird reputation on places like here because degenerates use it to raid with gross stuff. I have it to play games and voicechat.

As for roblox, I have an obsession with motorcycles and when I can't ride like right now because my shifter needs work I often play this game.

[] Eagle Nation (https://www.roblox.com/games/129118369937980/Eagle-Nation#!/)

 

[supersage]

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Yes, in normieville discord is normal. It only has a weird reputation on places like here because degenerates use it to raid with gross stuff. I have it to play games and voicechat.

As for roblox, I have an obsession with motorcycles and when I can't ride like right now because my shifter needs work I often play this game.

[] Eagle Nation (https://www.roblox.com/games/129118369937980/Eagle-Nation#!/)

>nushrooms are actual fucking discord users

 

[Sir]

>nushrooms are actual fucking discord users

I am a Nushroom, but I was on Soyjak.blog for some time years ago as Oot.

 

[supadrayk]

Saying stuff like "I will never" is internally demoralizing and only compounds upon sadness you feel inside, you can't say "never" without knowing what happens tomorrow.

That might sound like a hopeful cope I'm saying to cheer you up, but if you feel as though you won't ever be loved in a meaningful way there's probably truth to that idea of yours.

I speak in first person now because I don't know how you think, but my thought process when I thought about "Nobody will ever love me" comes from prior social rejection. I've faced a lot of ostracization growing up and don't feel in anyway that I have ever been chosen or prioritized among other people. You mention family, but to me, seeing them only try to care about me when my other brothers have become failures is disgusting and eye opening. Biological love to me, although real in some ways, feels shallow to me because their love is more out of obligation rather than choice because of societal norms, the law, etc.


Internally, I know that I have value, but when others don't reciprocate that, and don't validate that thought, it makes me think about my humanity. I'm human too, right, why is it that the tribe makes it seem otherwise? That's what I use to think before I started to respect myself more.

And that self respect is a cope born of being thrown aside, it's a protective mechanism to make me feel better, but if I acknowledge that and continue to move on in life, it isn't being reactive anymore, it's a concious decision and it's freeing.

The reality is everyone faces their problems, we're not special just because we suffered more. There is no great reward waiting for us for our suffering as we live. Some are cowardly and push you aside because that makes life easy for them, they act out of selfish convenience. Others may mistreat you out of hatred when you're weak, so that feel powerful, so that they can feel like they have some ounce of control in their lives. When you start to see the hierarchy and ulterior motives behind everything in life it makes it all start to seem like a game where everyone is so pathetically weak and shallow. It just circles back to that whole "you don't know" idea from earlier, we don't know that for sure, so it's better to keep on trying, right?

To me, there is beauty in the human weakness and I find love in that. If you want unconditional love, I am willing to offer it. I am lonely too , I can give you my steam or discord.

I suppose I should try harder to be hopeful but its not like im trying to be pessimistic, at least I think. I'm always trying to look at the positives but its hard for me to see them, and I don't know if I'm just blind to them or if they just arent there to begin with. I don't know what tomorrow has in store, and there is always hope in that, but to not recognize the pattern of nothing ever happening would just be a cope, I suppose. What helps most is distracting myself to oblivion but when I fail to be interested by distractions I'm just so alone and I need human connection. Human connection is a need, and I just don't have the privilege of even just conditional love. I will always try, but that will not make me feel better until something works. I don't have cord because I dont want my reputation tarnished but anything i am on, like steam, my name is just simply supadrayk.

 

[supadrayk]

It only has a weird reputation on places like here because degenerates use it to raid with gross stuff.

This is true but with the reputation i think its smart to protect your own reputation despite the conveniences it may have

 

[Sir]

I suppose I should try harder to be hopeful but its not like im trying to be pessimistic, at least I think. I'm always trying to look at the positives but its hard for me to see them, and I don't know if I'm just blind to them or if they just arent there to begin with. I don't know what tomorrow has in store, and there is always hope in that, but to not recognize the pattern of nothing ever happening would just be a cope, I suppose. What helps most is distracting myself to oblivion but when I fail to be interested by distractions I'm just so alone and I need human connection. Human connection is a need, and I just don't have the privilege of even just conditional love. I will always try, but that will not make me feel better until something works. I don't have cord because I dont want my reputation tarnished but anything i am on, like steam, my name is just simply supadrayk.

Yes, I understand. It's better to acknowledge reality for what it is, you're right that it's a cope to ignore the pattern and pretend tomorrow will magically be better. When you do that you have more freedom because you're not chained to a dream that may never come. But on the other hand, may implies a chance, so if something does show up that interests you, try and learn from that attempt.

This is true but with the reputation i think its smart to protect your own reputation despite the conveniences it may have

How does it affect your own reputation? I think it only would on a platform like this cause of raiders or in real life, more socially successful groups of people who see it as immature or a sign of being terminally online.

Personally, other people don't prioritize me and I'm not sure if they see me as weak or are intimidated. Whatever the case if they don't mean anything to me, why should I care about what they think? Their dismissive opinions are worthless.

Sent you a friend request on steam, I know I may type like a boomer but I'm 19 too. If you want to be closer friends, I think having a messaging platform beyond steam would be better for that, though I play games on steam daily.

If you don't want to 'cord, I also have Telegram because I downloaded it to message with some near 40 year old woman who invited me on there to try and learn from her about how women operate/think with little success. Experiment failed, bros...

 

[supadrayk]

How does it affect your own reputation? I think it only would on a platform like this cause of raiders or in real life, more socially successful groups of people who see it as immature or a sign of being terminally online.

Personally, other people don't prioritize me and I'm not sure if they see me as weak or are intimidated. Whatever the case if they don't mean anything to me, why should I care about what they think? Their dismissive opinions are worthless.

true and I don't normally care what other people think on matters such as that but I would prefer not to get banned or be hated in the soysphere for der cordin'

 

[Sir]

true and I don't normally care what other people think on matters such as that but I would prefer not to get banned or be hated in the soysphere for der cordin'

Bluddio froot, broot, doll, etc all of them are 'corders and there is irony in that these revered (by some) figures have fans that look past that and continue to hate 'cord because...? Think for urself, brah...

Why is 'cord bad in Soysphere? Cause groomers and raiders use it. It has value independent of those people, if you're not either of those, what is the problem? I don't want to press you to download something you're not comfortable with, but if we're going to be friends then we should voice chat and message frequently over a platform similar to discord or telegram. Do you have any ideas?

 

[supadrayk]

Bluddio froot, broot, doll, etc all of them are 'corders and there is irony in that these revered (by some) figures have fans that look past that and continue to hate 'cord because...? Think for urself, brah...

Why is 'cord bad in Soysphere? Cause groomers and raiders use it. It has value independent of those people, if you're not either of those, what is the problem? I don't want to press you to download something you're not comfortable with, but if we're going to be friends then we should voice chat and message frequently over a platform similar to discord or telegram. Do you have any ideas?

I may have an idea, but its going to take some time

 

[Sir]

I may have an idea, but its going to take some time

What could you possibly be referring to? Seeing the Lain PFP I'd assume some kind of self hosted irc or teamspeak, unless you're being overly vague because you don't know yet or don't like me but can't spit it out!

 

[supadrayk]

What could you possibly be referring to? Seeing the Lain PFP I'd assume some kind of self hosted irc or teamspeak, unless you're being overly vague because you don't know yet or don't like me but can't spit it out!

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you will see with time, its a push that has to be made

 

[supadrayk]

also its NHK bro not lain

 

[Sir]

also its NHK bro not lain

Didn't know, my apologies. I've never watched either and just assumed so cause I see people with anime profile pics of similar looking girls be techy. I like manime more, because I can't really understand or connect with female characters since I see them as fundamentally different.

you will see with time, its a push that has to be made

How much time, we only have so much

 

[supadrayk]

Didn't know, my apologies. I've never watched either and just assumed so cause I see people with anime profile pics of similar looking girls be techy. I like manime more, because I can't really understand or connect with female characters since I see them as fundamentally different.

I relate to the main male character more in the show and like him more but he has no aura so I have to express my love for him through his foid

How much time, we only have so much

Possibly an hour, possibly a day, possibly a week. There is no way to know.

 

[Sir]

I relate to the main male character more in the show and like him more but he has no aura so I have to express my love for him through his foid

Possibly an hour, possibly a day, possibly a week. There is no way to know.

Fuck.


Oh well, good things come to those who wait, as they say...

 

[supadrayk]

Fuck.
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Oh well, good things come to those who wait, as they say...

we got the clear bro.

 

[Sir]

we got the clear bro.

Okay, brocheerio what's the plan? 2 more weeks?

 

[supadrayk]

Okay, brocheerio what's the plan? 2 more weeks?

shhhhhhhhhh

 

[supadrayk]

Do I want to be realistic or do I want to be happy? I can't have both.

 

[BURN NIGGERS RAPE ALL NIG]

you are a noob