The Manson Tapes

it seems a shame to have to sneak to get to the truth. To make the truth such a dirty old nasty thing. You gotta sneak to get to the truth, the truth is condemned. The truth is in the gas chamber. The truth has been in your stockyards. Your slaughterhouses. The truth has been in your reservations, building your railroads, emtying your garbage. The truth is in your ghettos. In your jails.In your young love, not in your courts or congress where the old set judgement on the young. What the hell do the old know about the young? They put a picture of old George on the dollar and tell you that he's your father, worship him. Look at the madness that goes on, you can't prove anything that happened yesterday. Now is the only thing that's real. Everyday, every reality is a new reality. Every new reality is a new horizon, a brand new experience of living. I got a note last night from a friend of mine. He writes in this note that he's afraid of what he might have to do in order to save his reality, as i save mine. You can't prove anything. There's nothing to prove. Every man judges himself. He knows what he is. You know what you are, as i know what i am,we all know what we are. Nobody can stand in judgement, they can play like they're standing in judgement. They can play like they stand in judgement and take you off and control the masses, with your human body. They can lock you up in penitentiaries and cages and put you in crosses like they did in the past, but it doesn't amount to anything. What they're doing is, they're only persecuting a reflection of themselves. They're persecuting what they can't stand to look at in themselves, the truth.

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

send me

My only regret about not enlisting like I planned to.

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

My bosses aren't in today so they told me to just boss the summer workers around and then go hide somewhere.
Tomorrow we're leaving at 11 for lunch so basically my boss will be buying me a steak lunch and like 10 beers and then sending us home while paying us for the whole day

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Resident Evil 0 is fun, but I'm disappointed by the item management. When I first read that there were no item boxes, I thought item management would be a real issue to worry about, having to sacrifice items for more important stuff.
Turns out you can just drop shit and pick it back up later, so it really doesn't change much except making you backtrack.

The rest of the game is more challenging than the first game albeit. Less ammo and harder enemies. It's become a pain in the ass. Having fun THOUGH

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Resident Evil 0 is fun, but I'm disappointed by the item management. When I first read that there were no item boxes, I thought item management would be a real issue to worry about, having to sacrifice items for more important stuff.
Turns out you can just drop shit and pick it back up later, so it really doesn't change much except making you backtrack.

The rest of the game is more challenging than the first game albeit. Less ammo and harder enemies. It's become a pain in the ass. Having fun THOUGH

Might be a bitch and restart to play on easy. I'm desperately low on ammo and there's so many fucking enemies

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Might be a bitch and restart to play on easy. I'm desperately low on ammo and there's so many fucking enemies

I ain't no bitch

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

I ain't no bitch

Boss I just encountered apparently takes 9+ grenade launcher rounds or 9+ shotgun shells... noob...

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Boss I just encountered apparently takes 9+ grenade launcher rounds or 9+ shotgun shells... noob...

Got him btw. Grenade launcher is empty but I have plenty of shotgun shells and just need to start running past zombies until I find more pistol ammo. Hit a point where I have plenty of unlocked doors to go through. Feelsgood. Bummed that I won't be able to play much at work tomorrow, but at least I'm getting home early.

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

A bunch of people loosely related to my life have had sudden accidents or illnesses but I'm basically unscathed

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Festival season

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Finally tried THC again after not being able to use it without freaking out for almost a year now
Funnily enough, I have an urge to watch YouTube in the background while playing resident evil, which I literally never do with games other than, like, Civ and Tropico. It seems kind of dummyed to me normally.

I'm not freaking out, but I definitely feel a bit anxious so maybe I just want something mind numbing to distract me. Not gonna do it unless I need. I'm also yapping, so I'll try to stay off the site for the rest of the night and just play my game.
This is probably why my schlog blog was so rambley. If I started getting high semi-regularly again, I'm going to keep it to nighttime instead of doing it all day.

Keep thinking of more to say, so I'll cut it here. Goodnight.

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Finally tried THC again after not being able to use it without freaking out for almost a year now
Funnily enough, I have an urge to watch YouTube in the background while playing resident evil, which I literally never do with games other than, like, Civ and Tropico. It seems kind of dummyed to me normally.

I'm not freaking out, but I definitely feel a bit anxious so maybe I just want something mind numbing to distract me. Not gonna do it unless I need. I'm also yapping, so I'll try to stay off the site for the rest of the night and just play my game.
This is probably why my schlog blog was so rambley. If I started getting high semi-regularly again, I'm going to keep it to nighttime instead of doing it all day.

Keep thinking of more to say, so I'll cut it here. Goodnight.

Listening to this doesn't feel any more stressful than listening to lo-fi. I've found the perfect dose and I think the weed i was getting is dummyedly potent and made for crackheads

https://soundcloud.com/izumirawr%2Fyour-tumblrs-practically-porn

 

[Dagonet]

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

This made me dummy-laugh

 

[FartmingerFuckwadCheesest]

Spot the difference

 

[Dagonet]

Spot the difference
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Flower

 

[FartmingerFuckwadCheesest]

Flower

*tsk* *tsk *tsk It's shredded bark by the one who barks

 

[木制的尼尔森]

there's a deafening sound

 

[Dagonet]

*tsk* *tsk *tsk It's shredded bark by the one who barks

>Messing up on Nixon and shitoko

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

My niece has started telling me about dreams she had everytime she sees me, which is aryan because I also love telling people about my dreams.
It's especially cool because I don't even remember having dreams when I was that young, I think.
Earliest dreams I remember are me trying to jump from one surface to another, a jump I could easily make even as a child, but missing and falling down an abyss that shouldn't be there. That was probably around 4 or 5.
She was recently woken up by a dream for the first time, from what she remembers, and she was amazed when I told her that I still get woken up by dreams as an adult. She thought it was a kid thing.

Went to a fair with my nephews today also. It was extremely hot out.
Yesterday's fair was so lax that I just instinctively brought my knife with to this one. Got to security and realized they had guys with metal detectors, so I turned back to put my knife back in the car.
When I came back, the security guard said "thank you for leaving the knife" which took me aback.
Not sure if I'm overconfident of how well I concealed it, or if I just have low standards for county fair security, but I was very surprised that he knew I left the line specifically because of a knife in my pocket.

My first thought after the shock/confusion was that he was probably pleasantly suprised that I just respected the rules enough to leave my group, get out of line, and walk all the way back to my truck to put the knife away without being asked or making an attempt to sneak it in. My second thought was something like "yep, I did that because I'm white. A noob would have argued and caused a scene over it"

Anyway, unremarkable fair. There's the aforementioned panic attack from being alone with my nephews on a sketchy ferris wheel and constantly having to stop them from jumping out. Otherwise, they went on a few rides and played the "pick rubber ducks" game and we left.

Almost bought a tung tung tung sahur plush, and I probably would have if the vendor was white, but idk, something about mexicans invading the vendor booths at fairs just to sell some generic trend-chasing bullshit and 3d printed garbage pisses me off to no end
When i grew up, those booths were old white guys selling old collections, tools, or crafts. Even the Mexicans would atleast sell weird food that most Americans don't normally eat or Mexican candy. Now, some booths literally look identical. You can find 4 booths selling the same pop-culture themed ponchos, the same 3d printed snakes/dragons/octopi, to-go cups with designs, and whatever is popular that year. I hate it. I liked searching for weird shit at these kinds of things, but now it just feels like walking through a dying mall.

Uhhhhhhh idk what else. In bed for the night, gonna play some resident evil for a bit and go to bed. I think I'm close to the end of RE0, just have to load an old save because I royally fucked myself.

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

just have to load an old save because I royally fucked myself.

Already off to a much better start than my previous run. This should be a cake walk