The Manson Tapes

it seems a shame to have to sneak to get to the truth. To make the truth such a dirty old nasty thing. You gotta sneak to get to the truth, the truth is condemned. The truth is in the gas chamber. The truth has been in your stockyards. Your slaughterhouses. The truth has been in your reservations, building your railroads, emtying your garbage. The truth is in your ghettos. In your jails.In your young love, not in your courts or congress where the old set judgement on the young. What the hell do the old know about the young? They put a picture of old George on the dollar and tell you that he's your father, worship him. Look at the madness that goes on, you can't prove anything that happened yesterday. Now is the only thing that's real. Everyday, every reality is a new reality. Every new reality is a new horizon, a brand new experience of living. I got a note last night from a friend of mine. He writes in this note that he's afraid of what he might have to do in order to save his reality, as i save mine. You can't prove anything. There's nothing to prove. Every man judges himself. He knows what he is. You know what you are, as i know what i am,we all know what we are. Nobody can stand in judgement, they can play like they're standing in judgement. They can play like they stand in judgement and take you off and control the masses, with your human body. They can lock you up in penitentiaries and cages and put you in crosses like they did in the past, but it doesn't amount to anything. What they're doing is, they're only persecuting a reflection of themselves. They're persecuting what they can't stand to look at in themselves, the truth.

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

You ask if I'm doing alright
No, I'm not doing good
Cause I can't do nothing right
Smoking and drinking every single night
To get her out my mind
Just know that I try

Take a look into my eyes
And say that you love me,
Baby, don't lie.
It's all shit and so I reach into my bag
And grab a pack of cigs
And I smoke it outside

Drinking alcohol alone in my room
Thinking of how warm your hand was
On that night
Bottle after bottle ruining myself
While I'm thinking of you until I cry
Every morning, suicide on my mind
Try to ignore these feelings but I've lost the will to fight

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

I can't wait until I can post pictures. It's an adorable little trailer. It's the perfect vibe for me. I'm sleeping in that bitch as soon as I get it home

Alright, I think I'm safe.

 

[Zuse]

Alright, I think I'm safe.
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cozy

 

[lifesucksthenyoudie]

Alright, I think I'm safe.
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Peak 70s, reminds me of the Fishtank Season 2 house

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Peak 70s, reminds me of the Fishtank Season 2 house

Pictures don't even do it justice. I saw the marketplace pictures a week ago and was still blown away when I actually walked in. I'll post a video walking through when I pick it up (hopefully tomorrow)

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Alright, I think I'm safe.
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I think it's kind of funny that my stepmom asked if I'd be able to fit a queen sized bed in the bedroom. Like, yea noob, but I'm probably never sharing a bed with anyone ever again in my entire life so it's whatever

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Pictures don't even do it justice. I saw the marketplace pictures a week ago and was still blown away when I actually walked in. I'll post a video walking through when I pick it up (hopefully tomorrow)

Also, now that I think about it; despite the water damage and it apparently sitting there for 10 years, it didn't have any smell at all. It didn't even have that "old smell".
And I was so worried that the tires would be fucked, but they were totally fine. They were fully inflated without the slightest sign of dry-rot
They really don't make things like they used to.
Even after talking them down to $1,400 it's a miracle that it is in such good shape for the price I paid. I couldn't be anymore blessed to have found it. The people selling it were lovely, also.
Today was one of the best days I've had in a while and I'm so grateful for that. Everything is going to be better than I could have hoped.

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Maybe tomorrow

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

I still haven't asked about getting a cat, shouldn't be a problem now. Anyway, if I do, we're basically planning to park the two trailers next to eachother with a closed in area between them. I'd be able to "share" my dogs with my dad and stepmom, which means I'd also be able to have Dolly meet my cat and they can be best friends and cuddle and be dummyed together and I think that's just incredible. Great stuff. I will kill myself if they don't get along, I think.

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Got word that the trailer should be available to pick up today. Standing back and standing by.

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Got word that the trailer should be available to pick up today. Standing back and standing by.

Just waiting for my dad to get back from running some stuff. Hopefully only two more hours if that

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Got the trailer home without issue. Not gonna do much moving tonight. Might take some pictures inside later but it's dark and i didn't bother hooking up the electricity yet so maybe not.
Thank you, Claus.

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Taking Tuesday and Wednesday off work to move some stuff into my trailer. Feels weird having it in my driveway, but it really lifts my mood. To think I'll be living in it on my own soon is bewildering. Might sleep in it tonight just to get used to it.
Shit, I have to buy sheets for the bed, I don't think anyone in my house has used a twin bed in years. Will probably just throw a blanket on it until I get paid. Wawa.

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Fuuuuuuuck I forgot my wallet so now I have to go home after work and then run out for beer. I'm off tomorrow though so I guess it doesn't matter how late I stay up

 

[shipment]

Heil Claus.

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

I WILL practice my guitar more after I move (this time for real)

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Drinking alcohol alone in my room
Thinking of how warm your hand was
On that night
Bottle after bottle ruining myself
While I'm thinking of you until I cry
Every morning, suicide on my mind
Try to ignore these feelings but I've lost the will to fight

Fuck this song is so good. Fuck my life but I gotta lock in tonight so who cares it's over and that's okay

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

She says I've been surviving lost
And I don't mean the poison's gone
And I feel drained inside, you know
Die with me and I'll be yours

And I know you hope that I'm in denial of love
And I know you'll only see me in this cell
Hiding and taken to the back of all reason
If I only knew you wouldn't dance for my money
Only this I know: the time I've seen alone

She finds the things that say I'm gone
Inside I weep and die alone
She said "don't be excitable"
The night is deep, I'll die alone

She has a dream, wish I hadn't gone
Inside I weep, inside I'm gone
She's saving pain and hiding hope
Inside of me, I've been grown

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

She says I've been surviving lost
And I don't mean the poison's gone
And I feel drained inside, you know
Die with me and I'll be yours

And I know you hope that I'm in denial of love
And I know you'll only see me in this cell
Hiding and taken to the back of all reason
If I only knew you wouldn't dance for my money
Only this I know: the time I've seen alone

She finds the things that say I'm gone
Inside I weep and die alone
She said "don't be excitable"
The night is deep, I'll die alone

She has a dream, wish I hadn't gone
Inside I weep, inside I'm gone
She's hiding and hiding hope
Inside of me, I've been grown

 

[ATWA ya dig?]

Fuck you Eric you fucking noob